Day 2 recap
Whoops I forgot to post yesterday, but it's all pretty much the same.
I really felt bummed yesterday because it hit me that I really couldn't be a part of my friends' graduations. Travis texted me during the ceremony, so that made me giggle. Same with Kristin with her loving support. Brad sent me a number of texts detailing his party so I felt missed. I need the support when I am trapped in my room. It's not fun. Especially after I holed myself up in the dorm room to get final projects finished. I just want to go outside and play with my dog or drink a cup of tea with Savara on my lap. Or pour myself a glass of milk. Simple things, really. I feel stifled but still cold from all the hypothyroidism. Tomorrow my pretty pills will really start kicking in and I've moved to a 3 hour bladder schedule, so the worst is over. Tomorrow I can wash all my sheets and Ani gets a bath,too. Fortunately, my radioactive iodine is fairly water soluable, so I can wash everything and it will be fine. I do it all again on Tuesday or Wednesday, just to be on the safe side.
And for the record, I WANTED to be there this weekend. I really did, but it had to be done for my health. I pushed myself like CRAZY to finish up and get my life in order before going in for cancer treatment. It's hard to understand if you've never gone through hypothyroidism before, but I assure you, I am doing a phenomenal job of keeping my spirits up and being able to do what I do. The loss of control over emotions, the extreme sensitivity to cold, the ridiculous amount of weight fluctuation, the tiredness and loss of focus, and most of all, the depression that grabs hold of you when you let your guard down. It took a toll on me, fighting it so hard, and now it feels good to rest. Most every doctor I've talked to has been absolutely amazed at my ability to keep on going without quitting with a smile on my face. Soon I will be chipper and in control again, but this whole experience has taught me who my reliable friends are. The people who don't shy away from my problems and pull me aside to tell me when I am being irrational, who cook me dinner when I am tired, and most of all, the ones who just let my cry without making me feel guilty about it and doing their best to cheer me up. I appreciate you! Please forgive me as I continue to rely on you while I get used to my meds and I apologize for crossing the "too much information" line more than once. Thank you for making me laugh. It's not over yet, but it's about to get much easier for us all. Thank you for all the hugs and for convincing me that 'I CAN DO THIS!' haha ha. Every note, every encouraging word, and your kind understanding really, really means a lot to me. Hopefully, this radiation gets all the cancer and I don't have another surgery and treatment ahead of me, but I know I will have your support either way! Thank you thank you!!
Now, I am going to go take my shower and test the $5 PS2 my brother bought me. Too bad I left Ratchet and Clank in Moorhead!!
I really felt bummed yesterday because it hit me that I really couldn't be a part of my friends' graduations. Travis texted me during the ceremony, so that made me giggle. Same with Kristin with her loving support. Brad sent me a number of texts detailing his party so I felt missed. I need the support when I am trapped in my room. It's not fun. Especially after I holed myself up in the dorm room to get final projects finished. I just want to go outside and play with my dog or drink a cup of tea with Savara on my lap. Or pour myself a glass of milk. Simple things, really. I feel stifled but still cold from all the hypothyroidism. Tomorrow my pretty pills will really start kicking in and I've moved to a 3 hour bladder schedule, so the worst is over. Tomorrow I can wash all my sheets and Ani gets a bath,too. Fortunately, my radioactive iodine is fairly water soluable, so I can wash everything and it will be fine. I do it all again on Tuesday or Wednesday, just to be on the safe side.
And for the record, I WANTED to be there this weekend. I really did, but it had to be done for my health. I pushed myself like CRAZY to finish up and get my life in order before going in for cancer treatment. It's hard to understand if you've never gone through hypothyroidism before, but I assure you, I am doing a phenomenal job of keeping my spirits up and being able to do what I do. The loss of control over emotions, the extreme sensitivity to cold, the ridiculous amount of weight fluctuation, the tiredness and loss of focus, and most of all, the depression that grabs hold of you when you let your guard down. It took a toll on me, fighting it so hard, and now it feels good to rest. Most every doctor I've talked to has been absolutely amazed at my ability to keep on going without quitting with a smile on my face. Soon I will be chipper and in control again, but this whole experience has taught me who my reliable friends are. The people who don't shy away from my problems and pull me aside to tell me when I am being irrational, who cook me dinner when I am tired, and most of all, the ones who just let my cry without making me feel guilty about it and doing their best to cheer me up. I appreciate you! Please forgive me as I continue to rely on you while I get used to my meds and I apologize for crossing the "too much information" line more than once. Thank you for making me laugh. It's not over yet, but it's about to get much easier for us all. Thank you for all the hugs and for convincing me that 'I CAN DO THIS!' haha ha. Every note, every encouraging word, and your kind understanding really, really means a lot to me. Hopefully, this radiation gets all the cancer and I don't have another surgery and treatment ahead of me, but I know I will have your support either way! Thank you thank you!!
Now, I am going to go take my shower and test the $5 PS2 my brother bought me. Too bad I left Ratchet and Clank in Moorhead!!