039. Voice Post
[ His voice is very quiet and strained, nearly a whisper. ]
By the grace of God... I'm alive. He really is looking out for me...
But... the others...
...Anise...
[ There's a pause as he remembers his friend fondly. You won't hear him crying, but you will hear a bit of a sniff before he carries on with his entry. ]
Prayers weren't enough. Heavenly father, please have mercy on their souls... They were good people, and to end life so young... Such a tragedy...
[ Private; handwritten. Writing is small and shaky, and inkblots dot the page here and there. ]
How could the ministry just let that happen...? Aren't they even trying? I try my hardest daily to have faith in the people governing my country, but to not even have the capacity to protect itself from the inside? Does anyone know what they're doing? Where were the Aurors?
... I killed a man. Commandment number 5... I chose myself instead of him. What gives me the right? My friends had escaped already; I had no one to protect by killing him. Was I really so afraid to die? Not even Aurors deliberately kill; they just defend themselves when attacked. If the defense isn't enough, they die with honor. But I couldn't. If anyone saw... if anyone knows...
I feel slimy, crawling to God to ask for forgiveness from something as big as this...
[ /Private ]
[ ooc: Justin got into a one-on-one with a Death Eater while trying to help Maka and Crona escape. He was hit with a cutting spell and lost a lot of blood. It took them a couple of days to stabilize him at St. Mungo's, but now he's back at Hogwarts, trying to regain his strength in the hospital wing. Juuuust fyi~. ]
By the grace of God... I'm alive. He really is looking out for me...
But... the others...
...Anise...
[ There's a pause as he remembers his friend fondly. You won't hear him crying, but you will hear a bit of a sniff before he carries on with his entry. ]
Prayers weren't enough. Heavenly father, please have mercy on their souls... They were good people, and to end life so young... Such a tragedy...
[ Private; handwritten. Writing is small and shaky, and inkblots dot the page here and there. ]
How could the ministry just let that happen...? Aren't they even trying? I try my hardest daily to have faith in the people governing my country, but to not even have the capacity to protect itself from the inside? Does anyone know what they're doing? Where were the Aurors?
... I killed a man. Commandment number 5... I chose myself instead of him. What gives me the right? My friends had escaped already; I had no one to protect by killing him. Was I really so afraid to die? Not even Aurors deliberately kill; they just defend themselves when attacked. If the defense isn't enough, they die with honor. But I couldn't. If anyone saw... if anyone knows...
I feel slimy, crawling to God to ask for forgiveness from something as big as this...
[ /Private ]
[ ooc: Justin got into a one-on-one with a Death Eater while trying to help Maka and Crona escape. He was hit with a cutting spell and lost a lot of blood. It took them a couple of days to stabilize him at St. Mungo's, but now he's back at Hogwarts, trying to regain his strength in the hospital wing. Juuuust fyi~. ]