you dont wanna hear that thing talk
tonight was a pretty good night i would have to say(=. went over to curtis's house. always a laughing matter... seriously. i seem to laugh so much at his house. his mom is super duper(hahaha) nice. she says some funny things too... mmh... but i rolled 2. n we smoked them. haha. you know how i do...
AMERICAN IDOL SUCKS.
sorry... just had to throw that in there.. anyways. amanda and lindzy ended up showing up.. good stuff..
then i came home and Devynn came over and we finally got to clear some things up. I love her<3... and i opened up to her about some things that i havent really shared my views/feelings with anyone else..
. its crazy... my mind is such a DisAsTeR!
i have a bad feeling about something. i dont even wanna admit it to myself. cause what if im just being crazy.
very possible... haha. also.
that huge -i told you so-
gonna to come right into my face. i know it.
I miss my mommie. I really need her here to help me!! and guide me.
and pretty much tell me that she approves of what im doing with myself
and the choices im making.... she was that ONE person that i got guidanance from
and everything i did was to please her. and make her happy. grades... everything... erm...
i want her to tell me she approves of ben... and i should be with him...
hell. i dont even know if i SHOULD be with him. but i like him...
and lifes about taking chances riiight. but...
fuck. is it what i should be doing?
school. i know its what i should be doing...
i feel like if i continue to get a 4.0... there couldnt be better.. so houw could my mom not approve?
i like that i can control that... i really do... i enjoy school a lot more then a lot of people know... or realize..
im a little nerd inside... my mind has so much more room to expand.
i want to know things. i am eager to know things.
(= i am verrrrrry tired too... and my thoughts must.
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