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"Why does hello feel like goodbye?"
i havent updated in a while. im not bothering to say sorry cause no one reads it so no one to apologize to. well maybe leigh. cause shes wonderful like that. oh how i miss that girl. anyhow. schools been a bitch, even though i dont have that many classes that give homework, my schedules been tight. and SATs and i havent been managing my time that well. sitting online and talking to people isnt the best way to be spending my spare time, well it might be, but i need to get into the SAT studying.
i havent gone to church in a while, im a bad person. ow. and i dont know what else to do, i rarely have time to read the bible anymore. and i dont want to go to church for several reasons, that i cannot even explain which is stupid cause i shouldnt let that get in the way of me going to church for myself.
i dwell on what it was never like.
and i strive for something that i dont even have in my dreams.
it comes so rarely and goes so quickly
im not making this easier on myself
my weekends are nothing but lethargic acts of sitting around my house, with little motivation to study. yet i waste my time on it reading things that arent fully absorbed into my mind. the constraints i place on myself are keeping me from flying away.
im worried, that im not going to be free.
i havent updated in a while. im not bothering to say sorry cause no one reads it so no one to apologize to. well maybe leigh. cause shes wonderful like that. oh how i miss that girl. anyhow. schools been a bitch, even though i dont have that many classes that give homework, my schedules been tight. and SATs and i havent been managing my time that well. sitting online and talking to people isnt the best way to be spending my spare time, well it might be, but i need to get into the SAT studying.
i havent gone to church in a while, im a bad person. ow. and i dont know what else to do, i rarely have time to read the bible anymore. and i dont want to go to church for several reasons, that i cannot even explain which is stupid cause i shouldnt let that get in the way of me going to church for myself.
i dwell on what it was never like.
and i strive for something that i dont even have in my dreams.
it comes so rarely and goes so quickly
im not making this easier on myself
my weekends are nothing but lethargic acts of sitting around my house, with little motivation to study. yet i waste my time on it reading things that arent fully absorbed into my mind. the constraints i place on myself are keeping me from flying away.
im worried, that im not going to be free.