paranoia
i don't know...im seriously over this shit.
and everyone wonders why i have such trouble trusting people. so you want to know why? i'll tell you:
people are bitches. that's right. every single one of you. and me too. i know im a bitch, you don't need to point that out. it's been done enough, trust me. not that i've been told by anybody i give a rat's ass about to care enough about their opinion of me...but still. there it is. and because people are bitches, i can't trust them. honestly. here, lemme split my explanations up into boy/girl because i have different reasons for not trusting both.
boys: boys lie. boys cheat. boys break hearts. boys are assholes. they act like they really care about you, and then they ditch you. and for some reason, i have this feeling in the bottom of my gut that i cannot fucking get rid of: it's a feeling that a girl can love her boyfriend a lot and just really care about him sooo much. but you know what? her boyfriend will probably never feel exactly the same way. he may say it, but he won't mean it. he's just hangin' around 'til something better comes. don't ask me why i feel this way...i just do. i think it's my paranoia though, honestly. im just really paranoid about guys and relationships.
girls: girls lie. girls are bitches. girls are catty and think the world revolves around them and that they can do anything and everyone will still love them, no matter what. girls don't usually get aggressive physically, but we can definitely do some damage verbally. we hurt each other by starting rumors, shunning, backstabbing...whatever. see what i DO like about boys is that they don't waste their time with stupid shit like that. they got a problem with you, they'll tell you or else beat the crap out of you. straight. that's it. no messing around. and i guess that's why i liked being friends with boys so much when i was younger. cuz little girls are mean. if you don't do something right or the way they want you to, it's "bye bye" to you. but girls are just so mean. we're two faced, we gossip about bad stuff to each other and im just so sick of it.
i think this all comes down to being extremely paranoid. which is a mental disease actually. i can't trust anyone and i always think people are talking about me behind my back or aren't being sincere about anything...*sighs*
and everyone wonders why i have such trouble trusting people. so you want to know why? i'll tell you:
people are bitches. that's right. every single one of you. and me too. i know im a bitch, you don't need to point that out. it's been done enough, trust me. not that i've been told by anybody i give a rat's ass about to care enough about their opinion of me...but still. there it is. and because people are bitches, i can't trust them. honestly. here, lemme split my explanations up into boy/girl because i have different reasons for not trusting both.
boys: boys lie. boys cheat. boys break hearts. boys are assholes. they act like they really care about you, and then they ditch you. and for some reason, i have this feeling in the bottom of my gut that i cannot fucking get rid of: it's a feeling that a girl can love her boyfriend a lot and just really care about him sooo much. but you know what? her boyfriend will probably never feel exactly the same way. he may say it, but he won't mean it. he's just hangin' around 'til something better comes. don't ask me why i feel this way...i just do. i think it's my paranoia though, honestly. im just really paranoid about guys and relationships.
girls: girls lie. girls are bitches. girls are catty and think the world revolves around them and that they can do anything and everyone will still love them, no matter what. girls don't usually get aggressive physically, but we can definitely do some damage verbally. we hurt each other by starting rumors, shunning, backstabbing...whatever. see what i DO like about boys is that they don't waste their time with stupid shit like that. they got a problem with you, they'll tell you or else beat the crap out of you. straight. that's it. no messing around. and i guess that's why i liked being friends with boys so much when i was younger. cuz little girls are mean. if you don't do something right or the way they want you to, it's "bye bye" to you. but girls are just so mean. we're two faced, we gossip about bad stuff to each other and im just so sick of it.
i think this all comes down to being extremely paranoid. which is a mental disease actually. i can't trust anyone and i always think people are talking about me behind my back or aren't being sincere about anything...*sighs*