summer so far
Since I have just gotten the complaint form ashley williams that i never update anymore..i will make this update for her.
hey lj peopleeeeeeeee
my life is considerably dull..it consists of waking up early , going to camp..when i get there i go over the same eight dances that the kids will never get right hour after hour five times a week..the big show is next week...a very unenthusiatic wooo. on another note this strange little kid today told me that when i shake my butt in the beginning of the dance it turns him on..wierd!
My social life has had its ups and downs..it has consisted of this...
a few druken nights..going away on a disastorous trip 4th of july with ashley..read her lj for more details..dancing on tables at opas..many sleepovers at allisons..a few nights on the beach..alot of pool games and many many nights with nothing to do!
My parents are driving me absolutly crazy. I will never fufill their endless expectations for me..they expect me to have all my college resumes and applications done already and are already harping on me about all my AP eng work. I dont know where i want to go yet so how can i start with these applications. I used to have my whole life mapped out but now with eveyrthing so different all my goals seemed to have slipped away. My dream is to go out of state to college like maybe University fo Maryland Or GW. But ill prob end up in Flordia at Ucf or Uf or something like that.
I also have come to the conclusion that I am afraid of change. I hate it. I wonder if its becasue i am so insecure with myself, my friends, my family, guys..just about every aspect of my life.
I wish i had more confidence to open up and let people know how i really feel. I come off as this incredibly ditzy happy person most of the time yet there is so much more that I want people to see. I cant even count the number of people on one hand that I truly have opened up to and truly like me for who i am. I wish there were more people that i can get closer to but its just really hard for me for some reason. A really good friend of mine the other day was talking about how since I do not get alot of closeness in my family and my parents rarely show affection toward eachother or me that i find it hard to show affection for others too..i think this might be right but maybe i am being to melodramtic or overanalyizing myslef which i often do.
THIS WAY TO LONG! HOLY SHIT!
LAST QUESTION..IF YOU COULD GO NEWHERE IN THE WORLD..WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
hey lj peopleeeeeeeee
my life is considerably dull..it consists of waking up early , going to camp..when i get there i go over the same eight dances that the kids will never get right hour after hour five times a week..the big show is next week...a very unenthusiatic wooo. on another note this strange little kid today told me that when i shake my butt in the beginning of the dance it turns him on..wierd!
My social life has had its ups and downs..it has consisted of this...
a few druken nights..going away on a disastorous trip 4th of july with ashley..read her lj for more details..dancing on tables at opas..many sleepovers at allisons..a few nights on the beach..alot of pool games and many many nights with nothing to do!
My parents are driving me absolutly crazy. I will never fufill their endless expectations for me..they expect me to have all my college resumes and applications done already and are already harping on me about all my AP eng work. I dont know where i want to go yet so how can i start with these applications. I used to have my whole life mapped out but now with eveyrthing so different all my goals seemed to have slipped away. My dream is to go out of state to college like maybe University fo Maryland Or GW. But ill prob end up in Flordia at Ucf or Uf or something like that.
I also have come to the conclusion that I am afraid of change. I hate it. I wonder if its becasue i am so insecure with myself, my friends, my family, guys..just about every aspect of my life.
I wish i had more confidence to open up and let people know how i really feel. I come off as this incredibly ditzy happy person most of the time yet there is so much more that I want people to see. I cant even count the number of people on one hand that I truly have opened up to and truly like me for who i am. I wish there were more people that i can get closer to but its just really hard for me for some reason. A really good friend of mine the other day was talking about how since I do not get alot of closeness in my family and my parents rarely show affection toward eachother or me that i find it hard to show affection for others too..i think this might be right but maybe i am being to melodramtic or overanalyizing myslef which i often do.
THIS WAY TO LONG! HOLY SHIT!
LAST QUESTION..IF YOU COULD GO NEWHERE IN THE WORLD..WHERE WOULD YOU GO?