i don't feel right when your gone away
so im back home, i wish i wasn't because lex's house is the best. i miss being kyle's friend, but he dosn't deserve a friend like me, i'll just fuck things up worse for him, and i really hope that he understands where im coming from. the last thing i wanna do his hurt him, i did that enough. i really want to work on me right now, because i am really fucked up. i don't know how i got the friends that i have, but i know that i don't deserve them. but some how they stick around and i thank god everyday that i have them. i got some birthday presents this weekend. a lovely superman thong from chris.. haha (miss him) and 'the punisher' soundtrack... good fucking record go pick it up it kicks ass. and of course my 'l' neclace from lex. so im in an okay mood, a little sad and a little cranky but i'll be okay i guess. im hanging out with chris alot more, hes coming over for supper tonight,which he should be here any minute. maybe, just maybe we'll get back together one of these days, who knows though. all i can say is that when i look at him, my stomach gets weak and i think "wow" my only problem is,what if he trys to hit me again? i honestly think that he has changed, and i forgive him. well i gotta jet.. dinner