just one chance, thats all i want

[blackteardropsx]

its not fun having your love live so far away. i am so jealous of rachel, i don't know what to do about it. everytime i see her an ed i get pissed cause i can't hold chris untill the weekend.i guess thats what i get for loving someone so far away. i was told to dress differntly by my theropist. she said maybe if i wouldn't dress in baggy close i might get more attention from the oppisite sex. i guess thats true, but chris's clothes are so much more comfortable.(by the way she has no idea what goes on with me and chris, i decided shes not that special to share all the details of our realtionship with)i cannot wait for this weekend. i need to get away from boyertown for a while. and i get to see my amanda. man i miss her. i wish she didn't have to move to oley. science english n history was the best with her, bitching about all the stupid shit i delt with in my day. i just rememberd i have a quiz in math tomorrow, i hate math. i suck at it and im never going to be good at it. biology-never going to get. government-is just plain stupid as is spanish. i miss having drama. that class was awesome. me and alex first period fucking around with costumes and painting trees on walls. fun times. now we have orchestra every damn day, it gets old sometimes, plus im tired in the morning and i really don't feel like doing orchestra at 8:00. everyday after school i go to the jr. high and help out, whatever something to do.

i miss him more then words could desribe