Go figure
Things continue to go up and down, but I find myself appreciating it more these days. I think all the time I've spent with a certain Taoist is finally rubbing off.
The job search continues.... Some days I'm full of energy and motivation. Other days I'm lucky if I can force myself to look at all. This is the major stress of my life right now.
That is a wonderful thing.
I've been spending so much time and effort learning how to deal with mental illness for a year now. I'm getting better and stronger every day. I know this. I also know that career aspirations and educational goals have been put on hold because of it. Yes, I want job. Yes, I want to feel productive. But really, I want to actively work on my goals again. I want to stop putting school off.
I have things to work for, and so many possibilities to explore. I'm smiling.
I can see that I'm building a strong theater resume. After years of being ignored by the Tech, I can now proudly point to 2 reviews on 2 different sites for 2 different shows saying positive things about my costumes.
I'm getting less afraid of the dark every day. I can see the light more clearly.
And I laugh at the irony of it all. I'm looking for the light, and I've never felt more Goth than I do right now.
The job search continues.... Some days I'm full of energy and motivation. Other days I'm lucky if I can force myself to look at all. This is the major stress of my life right now.
That is a wonderful thing.
I've been spending so much time and effort learning how to deal with mental illness for a year now. I'm getting better and stronger every day. I know this. I also know that career aspirations and educational goals have been put on hold because of it. Yes, I want job. Yes, I want to feel productive. But really, I want to actively work on my goals again. I want to stop putting school off.
I have things to work for, and so many possibilities to explore. I'm smiling.
I can see that I'm building a strong theater resume. After years of being ignored by the Tech, I can now proudly point to 2 reviews on 2 different sites for 2 different shows saying positive things about my costumes.
I'm getting less afraid of the dark every day. I can see the light more clearly.
And I laugh at the irony of it all. I'm looking for the light, and I've never felt more Goth than I do right now.