theres beauty in breakdown
soo, long time ey? ill try not to drag it on for too long.
my 'festive period' turned out ok i guess. i had a proper shit weekend before xmas, so that was a great way to kick of christmas, but i went round to mels xmas eve and had a bottle of champers and watched rocky horror. it was good. i like feeling shit yet comfortable at the same time.
my mom made it quite clear xmas day that she really didnt want me in her life all that much, she didnt get me a card or preasent or anything, soo, i guess i should take it as a sigh when she tell me not to bother going to visit her? guess so.
i ended up spending xmas day with the people i love anyway!seriously man, the back end of 06 felt like shit for me, you tom, hoolie, dave, danny, lottie and mel have been like a second family, you knowx it mother hen! and the weekend in between xmas and new year, well, here what happened. i worked bocing day at topshop and the managers fucked me off so much that i called in sick the rest of the week, just to piss them off. and i was mianly stoned that week if im honest, but its ok, because i was exceedingly miserable otherwise.
new year came and i spent new years eve getting my first ink! many thanks to gaz, it seems to be healing well, im well chuffed. ill post some pics when i get round to uploading my cam and stuff. then new years eve ended up heading off to dewsbury with hoolie dave and danny, and ended up having an alright night. it was full of knobheads like, but after a few joints and stuff it was alright. extream ben, wtf? im gonna kick that guys head in. but yeah, good times were had all round.
as for now? well, im getting more paranoid about my weight by the day,and have taken to drinking abouta weeks supply of orange juice a day. im looking tired, probably because i am, and my breathing is horrendous. im despressingly single. but, i do have an ace dad, amazing friends, im at a great college and i have an income i suppose. thats alot to be thankful for. but im more miserable than ever, i dont know why, i just am.
now after polluting my body solidly for abou 3 weeks, ive decided that 2007s making changes:
no more cigarettes (this will have to be starting today...i suck)
drink less, it only makes me ill and moodys and i well kick off.
smoke a little less weed. no more of the week night sessions, maybe a sneaky lunch time, if anyones in town between 12-1 this week text me :P so only really smoking on weekends.
make the effort to go out out at least 1 night per week. maybe ill starting getting more confident and social? i dont think so, but i guess its worth a shot.
focus on college work more (duh.)
save some money and go on holiday! yes yes and yes. deffinitly go away this year.
get some help, find a fucking shrink or something.
appreciate my friends more! deffo, maybe try and makes some ammend, well see how much of a dichead i turn out.
broaden my music library, im so bored of my music right now.
get back some organizeation in my life, i had it before, i should be able to sort it again.
boob job.
just take every day as it comes. ive learnt theres no use in me planning anyting really, because hardly anything turns out as it should do, or as we planned.
lighten up, be the person i was a couple of years ago when i was relativly more relaxed and excited about life.
realize im better than my enemies, and i can rise above this shit.
wish me luck guys! most of this is hardly realistic i know. but im going to give it my best shot starting in the morning. i had a blast in 2006, thank you for everyone who shared it with me! it was on of the craziest most intense years, so much happened, and i dont regret a second of it...well.. maybe a few :P but nah, last year was amazing thinking back. it had some real low points, and im sure there loads to come this year, but well all be ok. we will!
hope youreall doing well and stuff, and happy 2007!
my 'festive period' turned out ok i guess. i had a proper shit weekend before xmas, so that was a great way to kick of christmas, but i went round to mels xmas eve and had a bottle of champers and watched rocky horror. it was good. i like feeling shit yet comfortable at the same time.
my mom made it quite clear xmas day that she really didnt want me in her life all that much, she didnt get me a card or preasent or anything, soo, i guess i should take it as a sigh when she tell me not to bother going to visit her? guess so.
i ended up spending xmas day with the people i love anyway!seriously man, the back end of 06 felt like shit for me, you tom, hoolie, dave, danny, lottie and mel have been like a second family, you knowx it mother hen! and the weekend in between xmas and new year, well, here what happened. i worked bocing day at topshop and the managers fucked me off so much that i called in sick the rest of the week, just to piss them off. and i was mianly stoned that week if im honest, but its ok, because i was exceedingly miserable otherwise.
new year came and i spent new years eve getting my first ink! many thanks to gaz, it seems to be healing well, im well chuffed. ill post some pics when i get round to uploading my cam and stuff. then new years eve ended up heading off to dewsbury with hoolie dave and danny, and ended up having an alright night. it was full of knobheads like, but after a few joints and stuff it was alright. extream ben, wtf? im gonna kick that guys head in. but yeah, good times were had all round.
as for now? well, im getting more paranoid about my weight by the day,and have taken to drinking abouta weeks supply of orange juice a day. im looking tired, probably because i am, and my breathing is horrendous. im despressingly single. but, i do have an ace dad, amazing friends, im at a great college and i have an income i suppose. thats alot to be thankful for. but im more miserable than ever, i dont know why, i just am.
now after polluting my body solidly for abou 3 weeks, ive decided that 2007s making changes:
get back some organizeation in my life, i had it before, i should be able to sort it again.
wish me luck guys! most of this is hardly realistic i know. but im going to give it my best shot starting in the morning. i had a blast in 2006, thank you for everyone who shared it with me! it was on of the craziest most intense years, so much happened, and i dont regret a second of it...well.. maybe a few :P but nah, last year was amazing thinking back. it had some real low points, and im sure there loads to come this year, but well all be ok. we will!
hope youreall doing well and stuff, and happy 2007!