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So I met my new math tutor today. She seems nice enough, she was really friendly and happy. I actually learnt things! Yay!!!!
In other news, I am so distracted. There is no way I can concentrate on one thing for more then ten minutes before I get sidetracked. Even when my friends are speaking to me, their voices just wash over my ears and I hear nothing. I want to get over this. But all I can seem to manage is to take off my glasses and sit. Its sort of nice actually, my vision is blurry and I un-focus. Its relaxing instead of being aware.
I dunno if its just me but lately I just can't stand anyone. If someone asks me for a pencil crayon I just want to snap at them, "JUST STOP ASKING ME FOR THINGS! I CAN'T JUST GIVE YOU EVERYTHING AND GET NOTHING BACK!" God, I feel like such a bitch for even thinking those things. Maybe I just need some alone time in the library. Nice quiet library, where books take over and you can just coast.
So I have Alice as my partner for science. Whoopee. I like Alice but just like everyone else she's getting on my nerves. She always puts me down. I make a small error and she calls me stupid. Its not that she even says it in a mean way, its just the repetition. The worst part is that she thinks its a game but its been going on too long for it to be a funny or a game anymore. And its making me feel like crap or that I have to "prove" myself to her. Fuck, I don't need to prove anything to her. I'm fucking smart! Have you seen my IQ score Alice? Put yourself in somebody else's position for once! How would she feel if I tore her down bit by bit every single fucking day.
Maybe she doesn't realize how she is affecting me but I've given her plenty of signs so when it happens tomorrow I will have to remind myself not to take her crap. If we're going to work together then its going to be respectful.
Phew. Ok, now that that's done with I can breathe. Sorry for the long rant (that is, if you even read all of it...or any of it). Hopefully the next time I update it will be on a brighter note.
Also, I was thinking about making this journal friends-only...I'm not sure yet but now that I've been ranting about certain people its maybe best not to have the information available to everyone.
In other news, I am so distracted. There is no way I can concentrate on one thing for more then ten minutes before I get sidetracked. Even when my friends are speaking to me, their voices just wash over my ears and I hear nothing. I want to get over this. But all I can seem to manage is to take off my glasses and sit. Its sort of nice actually, my vision is blurry and I un-focus. Its relaxing instead of being aware.
I dunno if its just me but lately I just can't stand anyone. If someone asks me for a pencil crayon I just want to snap at them, "JUST STOP ASKING ME FOR THINGS! I CAN'T JUST GIVE YOU EVERYTHING AND GET NOTHING BACK!" God, I feel like such a bitch for even thinking those things. Maybe I just need some alone time in the library. Nice quiet library, where books take over and you can just coast.
So I have Alice as my partner for science. Whoopee. I like Alice but just like everyone else she's getting on my nerves. She always puts me down. I make a small error and she calls me stupid. Its not that she even says it in a mean way, its just the repetition. The worst part is that she thinks its a game but its been going on too long for it to be a funny or a game anymore. And its making me feel like crap or that I have to "prove" myself to her. Fuck, I don't need to prove anything to her. I'm fucking smart! Have you seen my IQ score Alice? Put yourself in somebody else's position for once! How would she feel if I tore her down bit by bit every single fucking day.
Maybe she doesn't realize how she is affecting me but I've given her plenty of signs so when it happens tomorrow I will have to remind myself not to take her crap. If we're going to work together then its going to be respectful.
Phew. Ok, now that that's done with I can breathe. Sorry for the long rant (that is, if you even read all of it...or any of it). Hopefully the next time I update it will be on a brighter note.
Also, I was thinking about making this journal friends-only...I'm not sure yet but now that I've been ranting about certain people its maybe best not to have the information available to everyone.