Nobody seems to care
Didn't have to babysit my niece and nephew this weekend. I might have to next weekend though.
I finished all my homework (except history since I can't access the files from my account at school)
I dunno. I've been rather depressed this weekend. I've contemplated staying home tomorrow and telling my parents that I was sick so I can get a note from them. I feel bad for using them that way. But I'm not going to let that bother me.
My morals are changing. I don't think I will care much about honor, right and wrong, and good vs evil for much longer. Its getting old. I've always cared about being politically incorrect, insulting someone, making sure that people are happy, worrying about those that aren't happy. Honestly, whens the last time I've wished someone at school "merry christmas" (I don't celebrate christmas myself, except for the prezzies and tree thingy)? I have always said "happy holidays" just in case I might accidently offend someone. Fuck that.
I've given up caring. I think. No one cares anymore. Like Marina. She was overweight. Now she's fucking anorexic and when she asked questions in history and math people whisper and sometimes laugh. I makes me so fucking mad. But I don't do anything about it. Or what about the pregnant girl at school? People laugh. People whisper. But nobody says that they're sorry for her or that she's a nice person. Nope not the pregnant girl. She's a druggie, a whore, a bitch, a slut, nobody gives a shit about her, she only makes good gossip. What about that Add girl. No friends. When she sang on stage in grade 8 the school booed her. She stole stuff from students and got expelled. Nobody knew her. Sometimes she was even nice. But nobody cared about what happened to her. I remember in grade 6, when I went to the school with my brother and mom, she was there with her mother and Mme Goffin they were having some sort of interview. Mme. Goffin asked her to pass some papers to her and her mom slapped Jessica's hand because she was handing them over "too slow". Nobody cared. Nobodt felt sorry.
This whole thing is making me sad. Why should I care when nobody else seems to either? Why do I feel its my responsibility? And why do I care that I'm starting to stop caring? Fucking-hell WHY?!
I finished all my homework (except history since I can't access the files from my account at school)
I dunno. I've been rather depressed this weekend. I've contemplated staying home tomorrow and telling my parents that I was sick so I can get a note from them. I feel bad for using them that way. But I'm not going to let that bother me.
My morals are changing. I don't think I will care much about honor, right and wrong, and good vs evil for much longer. Its getting old. I've always cared about being politically incorrect, insulting someone, making sure that people are happy, worrying about those that aren't happy. Honestly, whens the last time I've wished someone at school "merry christmas" (I don't celebrate christmas myself, except for the prezzies and tree thingy)? I have always said "happy holidays" just in case I might accidently offend someone. Fuck that.
I've given up caring. I think. No one cares anymore. Like Marina. She was overweight. Now she's fucking anorexic and when she asked questions in history and math people whisper and sometimes laugh. I makes me so fucking mad. But I don't do anything about it. Or what about the pregnant girl at school? People laugh. People whisper. But nobody says that they're sorry for her or that she's a nice person. Nope not the pregnant girl. She's a druggie, a whore, a bitch, a slut, nobody gives a shit about her, she only makes good gossip. What about that Add girl. No friends. When she sang on stage in grade 8 the school booed her. She stole stuff from students and got expelled. Nobody knew her. Sometimes she was even nice. But nobody cared about what happened to her. I remember in grade 6, when I went to the school with my brother and mom, she was there with her mother and Mme Goffin they were having some sort of interview. Mme. Goffin asked her to pass some papers to her and her mom slapped Jessica's hand because she was handing them over "too slow". Nobody cared. Nobodt felt sorry.
This whole thing is making me sad. Why should I care when nobody else seems to either? Why do I feel its my responsibility? And why do I care that I'm starting to stop caring? Fucking-hell WHY?!