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I don't know what to write. Things are mediocre. School is fine. Home is a bit of a war zone but it usually is so no change there. My mom bought "My friend Leonard" and its fricking awesome. I love it. The cover is misleading (its pink), the story is really dark and so far its made me cry twice (I'm only on the third "chapter).
I'm feeling sort of depressed. Valentine's Day is coming up. It always makes me depressed. No matter how many times I tell myself that I don't need anyone(ie; crush or boyfriend), and that Valentine's Day is completely overrated. I can't help but feel a little hopeful. But I know that I will be disappointed in the end. Actually I really really don't need anyone. There's no one I really like or attracted to. I mean, I like boys and I do unconsciously look out for any undiscovered sex gods but that's just physical attraction. If I'm going to like someone I need to get to know them first.
Maybe I am being over analytical of everyone. Really my standards are way to high for someone like me. Its a fact. And I'm not sure I want to go on any sort of date or anything. I'm just really really unsure.
Anyway. I haven't updated for several days. So here is my summary of what happened to me during the last few days or so.
FRIDAY (after school)
Nimeet: Going to Mavericks?
Me: No
WHY? Because my parents decided that I would be going to see some losers pretend to be Abba and the Beejees on stage with our family friends. Did I have a choice? no. Did it suck as much as it sounds? yes. Am I scarred? yes. Did the person pretending to be one of Abba's lead singer's pants blind me? hell yes. Was this a complete waste of my time? you betcha. Would I be able to go to Mavericks' if I didn't get suckered into this? no.
SATURDAY
Soccer. We won 5-1.
SUNDAY
Shopped with mom. Bought stuff. Went home. had lunch. Went to buy presents for nephew.
Sister's clan came over. Had dinner. Had cake. Gave presents to nephew. nephew is now 3yrs old...I told him he has big 3yr old muscles and he has made me feel his arm continuously and exclaim how strong he is since then.
Finished homework
Cleaned huge amount of dishes.
Sat in my room.
Became depressed. Considered cutting but I wasn't depressed enough.
Read "My friend Leonard". cried
stared at the ceiling for half an hour.
TODAY
Math=boring
History=boring
-Afternoon-
Went home because I was sick
Threw up
Brush teeth
Threw up
Brush teeth
Read star wars ff
didn't do homework.
should do homework.
attempted to do homework
some homework is done.
wrote entry
is still writing entry
done
I'm feeling sort of depressed. Valentine's Day is coming up. It always makes me depressed. No matter how many times I tell myself that I don't need anyone(ie; crush or boyfriend), and that Valentine's Day is completely overrated. I can't help but feel a little hopeful. But I know that I will be disappointed in the end. Actually I really really don't need anyone. There's no one I really like or attracted to. I mean, I like boys and I do unconsciously look out for any undiscovered sex gods but that's just physical attraction. If I'm going to like someone I need to get to know them first.
Maybe I am being over analytical of everyone. Really my standards are way to high for someone like me. Its a fact. And I'm not sure I want to go on any sort of date or anything. I'm just really really unsure.
Anyway. I haven't updated for several days. So here is my summary of what happened to me during the last few days or so.
FRIDAY (after school)
Nimeet: Going to Mavericks?
Me: No
WHY? Because my parents decided that I would be going to see some losers pretend to be Abba and the Beejees on stage with our family friends. Did I have a choice? no. Did it suck as much as it sounds? yes. Am I scarred? yes. Did the person pretending to be one of Abba's lead singer's pants blind me? hell yes. Was this a complete waste of my time? you betcha. Would I be able to go to Mavericks' if I didn't get suckered into this? no.
SATURDAY
Soccer. We won 5-1.
SUNDAY
Shopped with mom. Bought stuff. Went home. had lunch. Went to buy presents for nephew.
Sister's clan came over. Had dinner. Had cake. Gave presents to nephew. nephew is now 3yrs old...I told him he has big 3yr old muscles and he has made me feel his arm continuously and exclaim how strong he is since then.
Finished homework
Cleaned huge amount of dishes.
Sat in my room.
Became depressed. Considered cutting but I wasn't depressed enough.
Read "My friend Leonard". cried
stared at the ceiling for half an hour.
TODAY
Math=boring
History=boring
-Afternoon-
Went home because I was sick
Threw up
Brush teeth
Threw up
Brush teeth
Read star wars ff
didn't do homework.
should do homework.
attempted to do homework
some homework is done.
wrote entry
is still writing entry
done