this is F*d up....
well after today i am seriously thinking of screwing drama pretty much. i have been lied to for too long and im forkin sick of it...its my senior year and i deserve some credit...two performances in a row and i got zip, nothin, nada.... i have never gotten the chance to sho wmy talent and i am tired of being used and played all these years when i have worked my ass off!
i got NOTHING in the play... AGAIN! for the second time in a row. i have never gotten a chance to really show people my talent and for what? 6 or 7 years now i have worked my ass off for drama and now my Senior year i still haven't gotten more than 4 lines at Bishop. I actually thought i had a chance. Only the newbie drama ppl were surprised when i didnt get the part. little emily exclaimed, "you were the best! I feel bad that i got a part and you didn't!"... but yeah everyone else was acting surprised when i started cryin in the morning, like they didnt see the list before me. i am not gunna pull an elizabeth haike but i just feel lied to. i mean Miss Labonte talked to miss causey when i might miss auditions (which i didnt) and said that Momma Causey was considering me for a main role. So yeah i got nothing..even when in class in speech she told ppl that i was in drama and that i was such a GREAT actress.... how would she know? HONESTLY! i have never gotten a major part! I REVOLVE AROUND DRAMA! DRAMA IS MY PASSION AND MY LIFE! ITS MY WAY TO COLLEGE FOR CHRISTS SAKE!
and then im sweating and helpin the band at practice today n some jerk off just asks, "what do you do?".. i then explaine dho wi love msuic and wanted to help and was not able to be in band or learn music in school like everyone else because (as usual) my parents did not support me. Then Randall totally hel;ped him figure out , "im a lower species... shes a band geek wanna be...she's the lowest of the low.." randall as a friend knew the day i was having or had an idea, but that was pretty much the icing on the cake for the day that just so happens to spell out in sugary white letter, "GOOD LUCK LOSER!"
i have pretty much hit rock bottom, in addition to the fact that i have no more real close friends and feel no one around give s a damn. this entry is emo but i think all i really have passion for now is BRAIL improv and peer ministry...... if anything else goes screwed up.... fuck college..these no point... im a screw up n bad role model anyway... wt the hell was i thinking this year>???
senior year my ass
this totally blows
i sooo want to be alone
dont show me ur sympathy it only makes me feel worse!
i got NOTHING in the play... AGAIN! for the second time in a row. i have never gotten a chance to really show people my talent and for what? 6 or 7 years now i have worked my ass off for drama and now my Senior year i still haven't gotten more than 4 lines at Bishop. I actually thought i had a chance. Only the newbie drama ppl were surprised when i didnt get the part. little emily exclaimed, "you were the best! I feel bad that i got a part and you didn't!"... but yeah everyone else was acting surprised when i started cryin in the morning, like they didnt see the list before me. i am not gunna pull an elizabeth haike but i just feel lied to. i mean Miss Labonte talked to miss causey when i might miss auditions (which i didnt) and said that Momma Causey was considering me for a main role. So yeah i got nothing..even when in class in speech she told ppl that i was in drama and that i was such a GREAT actress.... how would she know? HONESTLY! i have never gotten a major part! I REVOLVE AROUND DRAMA! DRAMA IS MY PASSION AND MY LIFE! ITS MY WAY TO COLLEGE FOR CHRISTS SAKE!
and then im sweating and helpin the band at practice today n some jerk off just asks, "what do you do?".. i then explaine dho wi love msuic and wanted to help and was not able to be in band or learn music in school like everyone else because (as usual) my parents did not support me. Then Randall totally hel;ped him figure out , "im a lower species... shes a band geek wanna be...she's the lowest of the low.." randall as a friend knew the day i was having or had an idea, but that was pretty much the icing on the cake for the day that just so happens to spell out in sugary white letter, "GOOD LUCK LOSER!"
i have pretty much hit rock bottom, in addition to the fact that i have no more real close friends and feel no one around give s a damn. this entry is emo but i think all i really have passion for now is BRAIL improv and peer ministry...... if anything else goes screwed up.... fuck college..these no point... im a screw up n bad role model anyway... wt the hell was i thinking this year>???
senior year my ass
this totally blows
i sooo want to be alone
dont show me ur sympathy it only makes me feel worse!