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I am DONE! DONE! DONE! I just wrote my last final exam. And now I'm done all those hell courses. I'm only taking one summer course so it should be really easy and I'm not worried about it at all. I'm officially done my second year of university! And what a year its been. Whew!!!
It feels good. Anyways, the new worry now is what to do with this eating business. I feel so ridiculously fat and before my excuse was that I needed to eat to study, but now that I'm done classes I have no excuse to eat. And therefore I want to go back to restricting so I can lose weight again and look semi-decent for the summer at least.
But problem #1: I can't get away with it since my mom knows exactly what behaviours to look for and she knows all my little tricks.
Problem #2: My doctor is weighing my so she'll know if I'm losing weight.
Problem #3: I do actually want to overcome this eating disorder. But I still want to lose weight. It would be amazing to be completely ok with my weight though and just be happy with my body. Not sure how I'm gonna go about doing that though.
For now I'm just happy to be done classes! I guess I'll have to take this one day at a time.
It feels good. Anyways, the new worry now is what to do with this eating business. I feel so ridiculously fat and before my excuse was that I needed to eat to study, but now that I'm done classes I have no excuse to eat. And therefore I want to go back to restricting so I can lose weight again and look semi-decent for the summer at least.
But problem #1: I can't get away with it since my mom knows exactly what behaviours to look for and she knows all my little tricks.
Problem #2: My doctor is weighing my so she'll know if I'm losing weight.
Problem #3: I do actually want to overcome this eating disorder. But I still want to lose weight. It would be amazing to be completely ok with my weight though and just be happy with my body. Not sure how I'm gonna go about doing that though.
For now I'm just happy to be done classes! I guess I'll have to take this one day at a time.