I don't feel like dancing anymore, momma.
Well, yesterday was so uber spiffy happy that I thought, "Gee, I hope I feel like this tomorrow. I hope I feel like this for a while~"
Cause I was singing and dancing and doing stupid voices and "commercials" for Bean, and watching movies, and playing DDR, and working on an art project, ect... It were fun :P
However, last night I didn't sleep well at all. ~~; And today my neck hurts, and I'm all fat because it's that water-retentive time of month (and probly because I'm just a cow anyway), and I feel sad and tired and blah and I hate myself and my boring, boring life... ~~; I never go out, I never have money, I'm scared to drive, I can't seem to draw anything lately and that pisses me off, and I'm pissed off at people I don't even see, and I don't know what to do with my life or how to feel like doing anything or...BLARG.
Fucking Pizza Hut won't even call me back about that application.
Yeah, did I mention I applied there? ~~; Thought I'd have a better chance and getting a job there because they have recently opened. Jerks still gotta call me.
I'm ready to have something happen to me already. Where's the man that steals my heart? The big, difficult-but-worth-it obstacle in my life? The random person that walks past and goes, "Holy fuck, your art is good! Can I hire you?"
What about all that, eh? Where the hell? When the hell, even? Or did I miss it? Or have I just had so many fuck-ups already that either I've been given up on, or I just don't notice that I am, in fact, having a life?
This is stupid. I want to go somewhere. I want to have a good day again. Is two in a row too much to ask? Really? Blah.
I hate these stupid complainy posts.
Cause I was singing and dancing and doing stupid voices and "commercials" for Bean, and watching movies, and playing DDR, and working on an art project, ect... It were fun :P
However, last night I didn't sleep well at all. ~~; And today my neck hurts, and I'm all fat because it's that water-retentive time of month (and probly because I'm just a cow anyway), and I feel sad and tired and blah and I hate myself and my boring, boring life... ~~; I never go out, I never have money, I'm scared to drive, I can't seem to draw anything lately and that pisses me off, and I'm pissed off at people I don't even see, and I don't know what to do with my life or how to feel like doing anything or...BLARG.
Fucking Pizza Hut won't even call me back about that application.
Yeah, did I mention I applied there? ~~; Thought I'd have a better chance and getting a job there because they have recently opened. Jerks still gotta call me.
I'm ready to have something happen to me already. Where's the man that steals my heart? The big, difficult-but-worth-it obstacle in my life? The random person that walks past and goes, "Holy fuck, your art is good! Can I hire you?"
What about all that, eh? Where the hell? When the hell, even? Or did I miss it? Or have I just had so many fuck-ups already that either I've been given up on, or I just don't notice that I am, in fact, having a life?
This is stupid. I want to go somewhere. I want to have a good day again. Is two in a row too much to ask? Really? Blah.
I hate these stupid complainy posts.