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PONDERING IN THOUGHT OVER WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE, I REALIZED I HAD NO IDEA. SURE, I CAN FIGURE OUT MY IMMEDIATE DECISION OVER MY CAREER, BUT WHAT ABOUT THE ACTUAL LIFE PART? YOU KNOW -- THE PART THAT MAKES HAVING A CAREER NECESSARY. ACTUALLY, I GUESS I KIND OF FIND HAPINESS AND EXCITEMENT IN THE FACT THAT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO PLAN OUT MY WHOLE LIFE. OTHERWISE, NOTHING WOULD BE A SUPRISE, AND I DO LIKE SUPRISES.... BUT ALSO TAKING INTO ACCOUNT THAT INEVITABLY THERE WILL BE TERRIBLE THINGS RIGHT ALONG SIDE ALL THE JOYOUS THINGS LEAVES ME WITH A LINGERING SADNESS..BUT NOT A FEARFUL SADNESS..JUST SIMPLY A SADNESS. IT'S ALL WORTH IT, THOUGH. EVEN IF ITS JUST TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS OUT OF CURIOSITY.........