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man its sad how almost at everyone at my school mimics one another. the fact that there is no unity amongst us americans yet people complain about the war in iraq. the idea of one person wanting to dress as themselves tends to give people stomach aches or something. im all about my wierd wacky way of dressing. but when i come to school, people always have some immature put down to give me. or they laugh at me. try to betlittle me. try to make me feel bad for looking different. its hard living in a world when you are so different. when your a blotch on a plain white sheet.
life becomes complicated when you feel as if no one is on your side. when you feel like an outcast for not liking what everyone else likes. when your not in the 'cool' group its fine. but when you're referred to as 'gothic' you become open to tons of verbal abuse, verbal harassment and so on. i have four classes at school. only four. i leave at lunch. i would like to spend lunch with my friends. but i dont want to. i dont wanna deal with immmaturity at every corner. i dont wanna deal with assholes that cant accept whats different. i dont wanna deal all this middle school crap.
i cant see why students are admitted into high school if they cant act their age. they dont show that they are capable of a higher level of work. i cant see why their behavior needs to be tolerated. but in times like the one im in. all i can do is be strong and not let the things people say bother me. its quite beyond complicated to ignore everyone in your way. but it isnt impossible. i have been dealing with other peoples' shit for all my life. i can hanlde more of it. im just tired of it. i wish there was a short cut. some eays way out. but i like when life provides me with a hard time because i learn to be stronger than others, etc.
well im getting lost with this entry i just had a horrible say at school. ill write more some other time.
YES YARON IM GETTING TO LIKE LJ NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
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life becomes complicated when you feel as if no one is on your side. when you feel like an outcast for not liking what everyone else likes. when your not in the 'cool' group its fine. but when you're referred to as 'gothic' you become open to tons of verbal abuse, verbal harassment and so on. i have four classes at school. only four. i leave at lunch. i would like to spend lunch with my friends. but i dont want to. i dont wanna deal with immmaturity at every corner. i dont wanna deal with assholes that cant accept whats different. i dont wanna deal all this middle school crap.
i cant see why students are admitted into high school if they cant act their age. they dont show that they are capable of a higher level of work. i cant see why their behavior needs to be tolerated. but in times like the one im in. all i can do is be strong and not let the things people say bother me. its quite beyond complicated to ignore everyone in your way. but it isnt impossible. i have been dealing with other peoples' shit for all my life. i can hanlde more of it. im just tired of it. i wish there was a short cut. some eays way out. but i like when life provides me with a hard time because i learn to be stronger than others, etc.
well im getting lost with this entry i just had a horrible say at school. ill write more some other time.
YES YARON IM GETTING TO LIKE LJ NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
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