Today in Will's arms.
Oh my god...
You guys...
You don't even know.
I'm in love...When I think about it it makes me tear up. I love him.
You don't know how good he makes me feel. Will is my one and only. My
one and fucking only. I know it. I can feel it when he kisses me. I'd
give anything to have twenty minnues ago baco. Twenty minnutes ago was
real. He had to leave in less than 3 minnutes and we were kissing
goodbye. That feeling, you know, the shock your body gets when you kiss
somebody you know you love. Oh, you don't even know. I keep saying
that. But if only you guys could know the half of it. But I'm glad you
don't see what I see in him because then you'd love him to. I don't
need anymore competition.Ha. Competition? No. They are NOT competition.
Me and Will are going to be together forever. Look all you want ladies,
but you can't touch!:) I'm gonna marry him. I'm gonna have his babies.
And I'm happy about this. The other night on his back porch we were
sitting togehter. He was between my legs facing away and I was all
wrapped around him with my head on his back and we were talking. All of
a sudden it gets real quiet and I hear him sniffel. No big deal. Then I
kiss his neck alittle and he tourns to me and he gently holds my head
in his hands and he says: "Swear to me that you're not going to leave
me. I'm 100% in love with you. I can't imagine living without you.
Don't hurt me, swear you'll be mine forever. I want to spend forever
with you. I want to be with you forever. I can't ask you to marry me
yet, because it's not right. I want a ring and the whole thing, but for
now promis me you wont leave me. I don't know why I'm even crying right
now, it's just alot to deal with. I love you so much it kinda scares me
a little."
MARRY! YES MARRY HIM I AM GOING TO! Fucking eh people. I want to shout
from the roof tops that WILL HIRSCH IS MINE! AND ALL MINE! NO MATTER
WHAT WE ARE TOGEHTER! I'm so glad that I couldn't go to Tech Fest this
year. I'm actually glad. Because if I'd have gone I wouldn't have met
him. Well, I may have, but shit would be different. Because we wouldnt
have a whole night to spend togehter. Then again maybe the demon
bitches wouldnt have been there. But Matt might not have been. Matt was
a big part of my decision to persue him. Becuse the first night we met
Matt pulled me in a room and was like:
"Do you like Will?"
And I was like:
"Yeah...Like ALOT. Why?"
"Because he likes you...LIKE ALOT."
"For real? **Butterflies**"
"Yeah."
I was floating. Then later I got the FULL conversation between Matt and
Will:
"Will, do you like that girl?"
"Yeah dude. I do. Like you don't even know. I like love her."
"Would you leave (your girlfriend) for her?"
"Yeah. I'd have to say I would."
"DUDE! I'm SO hooking you two up."
Lol.I LOVE Matt.And I'm glad he told me that. I'm so IN FUCKING LOVE!
God. WHO WANTS TO COME TO THE WEDDING?! Lol. GOWD! The shit he says and
dose. It's the way he kisses me. You know who your meant to be with by
the kiss. It's a beautiful thing. I need to get pics of him and I in
here. More of them. Because we saw him hapily playing with my Gee-tar
in my bra, but now I want a few serisoly cute ones of us. And I need a
photographer that can do good work. I need a few pics taken for me that
I have ideas for. They are going to be a few poetic, and a few
politicaly motovated. ect. ect. You know. Anywyas, me and him need to
take pics together damn it. GOWWWWD! I'm going crazzy. Less than an
hour hes been gone and I want him back. Kissing him, holding him. Just
feeling his body against mine. Any of you who have dated him(...Nobody
that reads this I dont think. And you'll never get the chance.) know
what it's like to feel him. He has his own distinct feeling, smell,
taste, smile, touch. Everything. He's his own...One in a million and I
found him. Go me...Fucking go me. Oh shit. I dont care it's only been
like a month and a half. We had a connection like no other before we
went out even. I remember the first time I kissed him. It was the
second day we hung out. We were making bracelts in my dad's kitchen. I
made him one
with the nickname I gave him: Gomez. And then I made him one that said
"Ali <3's you." And then his grandma needed him to help her. So he
had to go for about twenty minnutes. And when he went to leave I pulled
him back and kissed him very softly and I said "See you when you get
back." And he just stood there for about 10 seconds looking at me, and
he goes "Oh god." And leaves. I didn't care about anything. Just that I
was falling fast for him. Then Monday I got a message at school from my
dad:
"Call me when you get off school. Its important."
So I texted him back:
"What is it?"
"It's about Will."
"Oh shit. Is he ok?"
"Yeah."
"Then tell me."
"He broke up with (his girlfriend)."
I was so happy I was jumpping for joy in the middle of choir, middle of
a song. I bust out with jumps and HUGE ass smiles! It was great. Then
it was at the choir banquet the next day I decided I was going to be
with him. I left my b/f the next day and let him know. Then Thursday I
didnt see him, but Friday I did. And I totaly LOVED all day with him.
Then we spent like a bajillion hours on his porch untill Saturday at
one AM he asked me out. And I was MORE than ahppy to say yes. And we've
been happier than hell ever sence. And I'm so happy for this. I mean I
honestly hate the fact that people had to get hurt in all of this, but
that's life. We were meant to be. One day we are gonna runaway
together. Just to let you know. We are just upping one day and taking
off. WE know where we are gonna go, and when. We have it all planned
out. So when I dont say goodbye, I'm sorry. But we arent telling
anybody where we are going. Haha. I'm excited. I'm actually giddy as
all hell right now. I cant wait to hear his voice on the phone
tomarrow. Ahhh!
SPEAKING OF TOMARROW!
I'm going to see Gina.
This, this excites me.
I'm giddy for this as well.
Now I need to get my happy ass to Roseville and see thoes BITCHES!:)
JP JP!
Ya'll know I got nothin but love for ya!:)
Thats it for now. Tired.
TTYL
XxoO
Alyssa Rose