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Urrg! I hate people today. I don't want to fucking go to my grandma's today. Im gonna hate every minnute of it. Plus I get to deal with Stefanie and Tori all fucking night. I swear to God if they start their shit Ill beat the hell out of both of them. My sister and Tori came up with this great idea to call Grandma instead of mom again. If only put together the tow of them had like...half a fucking brain. Stupid asses! I hope to god she gets grounded. Maybe then she'll learn!
Ive been stressed as hell latly. I can feel it taking its toll. My chest feels tight all day everyday, I feel like I cant breathe. I hate this all. I dont want to fucking go to my grandmas!! I want to stay home and sleep. That would be great. To go about my day regularly. I feel like shit and I swear if I dont feel better later Im not going. Im not Im 15 not 5 I can stay home. The only stress releif Ive had in like the last month and a hlaf 2 monthis last nights mim-rave thing! I had alot of fun it was awsome. We all danced to the hott ass beat, hott sweaty bodies grinding, bouncing, spinning, touching. The feel of the people behind you, infront of you, next to you. The hands sliding up and down your thighs and hips. The hott sticky jean on your legs. The pulse of the music and the feeling of not giving two shits less what the ones who arent dancing have to say. I wish I was there again. With Cory. He's so theapudic for me. Why dont I see him more? He makes me feel good. I like his energy. Oddly enough, although I have a burning desire to be with him always, I dont like the thought of BEING with Cory. I like him only as a friend. Stricktly as a friend.
Lost my voice even worse last night. And now Im healing it with more tea and throat shit than Ive even consumed. Parcially because I hate tea. And secondly I hate throat thearpy drops. My nose burns. Like I just snorted something. Everything burns. Ahh! Ok...Im gonna go get dressed. Maybe later Ill update.
XxoO
Alyssa Rose