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Lots and lots has been going on but I have been too blocked to actually write for some reason. It really sucks how sad I have been. So much is changing and I am dealing with loosing a best friend and dealing with my other having a drug addiction. Its all been very traumatic for me in a sense, but my health issues are what really have sealed it. I have still not been able to find out what is wrong with my intestines for about 8 months now. I have had a entire slew of tests and 5 days ago, had surgery. It just all sucks sucks sucks. The only good thing thats happening is me and Matt are getting an apartment together, but I am so sad to leave my home and have to be self sufficient at such a fucked up time in my life. Im worried about money, and it making me crazier than I already am. I am only living off of unemployment right now so I have 7 weeks left of that and then....well I have to figure that out. I want to be so excited about moving in with Matt but because I am so utterly exhausted with life and all that is happening, I'm not even able to feel much of anything right now. I am at least going to a therapist again who is amazing and actually makes me feel good. Just FML right now.
FML.
FML.