-->Well... what an eventful little day this has been...ok main thing of yesterday..dasilva brushed my arm and i melted...and me and dee got in another fight..surprise surprise
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-->Marz<-- [41] *Breathe out so i can breathe you in... says: sorry for being such a pain in the ass these past couple of months -->Marz<-- [41] *Breathe out so i can breathe you in... says: your such an amazing friend i think i have been taking that for granted
haven't i also though? haven't i shunned you into some sort of shadow, made you feel left out? and dont you dare say no, because i have in the past. the last couple of months have been hard to deal, but im still here. im still living. probably not living it all with you which i am sorry for. sometimes i feel left out of your life, like at school for the past couple of months, but you went through that same kind of rejection-ish shit right? so...we're even now. now, we just have to promise not to be stupid and do it again.
its when we make up, we grow stronger. but sometimes madness brings out the truth. please express your feelings at the point of time so i'll know what to do, and i'll do the same. its because of that i didn't know how to say things to you anymore or heck even act, and mariusz doesn't get it exactly cause its different with guys. thats why i just dont tell him things anymore...or anyone. sure i'll talk to debbz, but its the same thing "dont worry about it, screw it" i cant screw it. i cant be careless. im not like that. if something happens, it'll bug me until its COMPLETELY DEALT WITH.
so if anything, i took you for granted too. we out up with you, because we have faith we'll all stay best friends, that everything will be allright, and we'll stick together. and we're keeping it that way, no matter how sad or angry we get. i've snapped, but i knew in my heart if we had not remained friends, it would be double as hard. i wouldn't have the will to love anymore. i can love kopluch knowing that you're there too, but if i lose one person, everything will tumble down.
YOU are my rock i count on to get through my day. sure he is too, but it doesn't measure up to you. sure me and mario have a different sort of relationship which is important, but if anything, i think of you first. then mario, then ari. then the rest of our friends before myself. i've gotten used to pain so much that its kinda...swept away when iim around you all, especially you. just dont forget that ok?
now, i must continue the story...might watch those emo boys make out to get me back on track. *hugs* i love you...
sorry for being such a pain in the ass these past couple of months
-->Marz<-- [41] *Breathe out so i can breathe you in... says:
your such an amazing friend i think i have been taking that for granted
haven't i also though? haven't i shunned you into some sort of shadow, made you feel left out? and dont you dare say no, because i have in the past. the last couple of months have been hard to deal, but im still here. im still living. probably not living it all with you which i am sorry for. sometimes i feel left out of your life, like at school for the past couple of months, but you went through that same kind of rejection-ish shit right? so...we're even now. now, we just have to promise not to be stupid and do it again.
its when we make up, we grow stronger. but sometimes madness brings out the truth. please express your feelings at the point of time so i'll know what to do, and i'll do the same. its because of that i didn't know how to say things to you anymore or heck even act, and mariusz doesn't get it exactly cause its different with guys. thats why i just dont tell him things anymore...or anyone. sure i'll talk to debbz, but its the same thing "dont worry about it, screw it" i cant screw it. i cant be careless. im not like that. if something happens, it'll bug me until its COMPLETELY DEALT WITH.
so if anything, i took you for granted too. we out up with you, because we have faith we'll all stay best friends, that everything will be allright, and we'll stick together. and we're keeping it that way, no matter how sad or angry we get. i've snapped, but i knew in my heart if we had not remained friends, it would be double as hard. i wouldn't have the will to love anymore. i can love kopluch knowing that you're there too, but if i lose one person, everything will tumble down.
YOU are my rock i count on to get through my day. sure he is too, but it doesn't measure up to you. sure me and mario have a different sort of relationship which is important, but if anything, i think of you first. then mario, then ari. then the rest of our friends before myself. i've gotten used to pain so much that its kinda...swept away when iim around you all, especially you. just dont forget that ok?
now, i must continue the story...might watch those emo boys make out to get me back on track. *hugs* i love you...
--*dee
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