You Know How I Feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life ...
For me
And I'm feelin'
Gooooooooooooooooooooood
[Michael Buble can really capture a feeling]
My summer has been quite unusual. I've kind of taken a break from work. I didn't want to but I got kind of sick and was forced to. I also needed a break so that I could actually enjoy my last summer before college. So that means everyone should feel free to call me any time because I will actually be available for the first time in forever!
I'm kind of recovering from some things that were bothering me for a few weeks. I think I'm kind of becoming a different person. But in a good way. I'm trying not to shy away from things and push people away like I did towards the end of the year.
Also, Joe and I broke up. It was actually like a week ago but I didn't say anything because I figured we would have gotten back together by now. But we haven't. And I think it might really be over this time which not I was expecting to happen. It really wasn't a surprise to either one of us because we were getting really annoyed with each other/things were becoming very boring and routine. But the fact that it's really over is a big surprise to me. I'm taking it really hard but trying not to.
This is the first time in six years that I didn't think we were going to get back together. And that's scary. And now I don't know what to do with my time because when I wasn't at school or working I was at Joe's. Now I'm not at school, working, or with Joe so I have nothing to do with my time and that's a new feeling. Another new feeling is the actual feeling of being single. It's been a really long time since I didn't have a boyfriend or potential boyfriend and I feel really strange.
But seriously, I think I'm afraid of being alone. But it's too late to start any kind of new relationship with someone new because I'm leaving in a month and a half. Not that I even want a new relationship. I don't know what I want. I thought I wanted to be single ... but now I'm not liking it very much. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being dramatic, but I don't have anyone to talk about this with because my two best friends are gone [Sam is in Myrtle Beach and Joe is Joe, so that won't work].
::sigh::
It's a new day
It's a new life ...
For me
And I'm feelin'
Gooooooooooooooooooooood
[Michael Buble can really capture a feeling]
My summer has been quite unusual. I've kind of taken a break from work. I didn't want to but I got kind of sick and was forced to. I also needed a break so that I could actually enjoy my last summer before college. So that means everyone should feel free to call me any time because I will actually be available for the first time in forever!
I'm kind of recovering from some things that were bothering me for a few weeks. I think I'm kind of becoming a different person. But in a good way. I'm trying not to shy away from things and push people away like I did towards the end of the year.
Also, Joe and I broke up. It was actually like a week ago but I didn't say anything because I figured we would have gotten back together by now. But we haven't. And I think it might really be over this time which not I was expecting to happen. It really wasn't a surprise to either one of us because we were getting really annoyed with each other/things were becoming very boring and routine. But the fact that it's really over is a big surprise to me. I'm taking it really hard but trying not to.
This is the first time in six years that I didn't think we were going to get back together. And that's scary. And now I don't know what to do with my time because when I wasn't at school or working I was at Joe's. Now I'm not at school, working, or with Joe so I have nothing to do with my time and that's a new feeling. Another new feeling is the actual feeling of being single. It's been a really long time since I didn't have a boyfriend or potential boyfriend and I feel really strange.
But seriously, I think I'm afraid of being alone. But it's too late to start any kind of new relationship with someone new because I'm leaving in a month and a half. Not that I even want a new relationship. I don't know what I want. I thought I wanted to be single ... but now I'm not liking it very much. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being dramatic, but I don't have anyone to talk about this with because my two best friends are gone [Sam is in Myrtle Beach and Joe is Joe, so that won't work].
::sigh::