Feb 04, 2010 03:02
Drala.
A Tibetan Buddhist term in which "Dra" means enemy, and "La" means above. Literally, "rising above the enemy" or "beyond the enemy".
I am learning to live without undue anger and aggression. Sometimes it can be a difficult transition.
On late nights like this, I lie awake and wonder why I'm not with anyone. It's not even a matter of not having options, but rather that i'm not totally and unabashedly mad about any of them. Is it immature or naive of me to always pine backwards for that complete sensation of emotional, mental, physical, sexual and spiritual connection? Or is it only having high standards?
On nights like this, I hate that I still think about what his skin felt like against mine, his chest gently rising and falling with his breath, and my own body floating softly with him.
I am learning to live without regrets.
He will always be one of the best things that ever happened to me.