life sux

[blackrainbow312]

well its almost time for school again and last night was the worst night ever. my friend ken asked me to go to a party so he wouldnt be alone there, knowing his ex and best friend were there. well i show up and start talking to nicole and lizzie. well, all before that ken goes to the movies with a dude from UA and lies to his parents, who are frantically searching and worried about him. i wish i could talk to may right now.. anyways, he shows up at megans party with that dude all over him... i was soo flippin pissed/sad i just walked away... he didnt even say hey or anything. he only stayed for five minutes and then came up to me and hugged me like everything was just great! then he left with his loverboy. i wanted to cry but i just tried not to think about it and just talked and stayed with nicole and zak. well when i got home i just broke down and talked to emily (my friend from laredo, tx). she is really good wise with advice and help. well i got on aim around 12:15ish and then ken IMs me like nothing even happend.. anyways after he left the party he went to see kevin and andrew at joe muggs - (y the hell would he wanna see them, i mean he wanted me to go to the party because they would be there...) and he was hugging his little date when his dad walks in.. so now they took his computer, car keys, and cell phone. the only good thing that came outta this - i jumped off a springboard and flipped in the air and landed in a foam pit. then zak fell in on top of me :X ill ttyl~

Screw this world
Why do I try
I hate this shit
I'd rather die
Lifes not worth living anymore
So why wait and see whats in store
I'd rather get a bullet to the head
Then I'd surly be dead
Or the slit of my wrist
Blood running down my arm
That just might be my lucky charm
I hate myself so why do I stay
I know that I will be gone one day
I wonder why can't it be today