keysmashing
So freakin frsutrated with being split between two mindsets.
I want to go above and beyond the day job but I don't want to because it requires so much of me.
I want to do things I can show off to people but it scares me like the dickens
I want to kick my bad habits but they're so comforting.
And I know I have to go the hard route because if I don't, I'm going to spend the rest of my life being miserable. I can't turn my back on that path anymore. No matter what, I know that I can do and do it well. I just don't want to put in the effort. fuuuck
I want to go above and beyond the day job but I don't want to because it requires so much of me.
I want to do things I can show off to people but it scares me like the dickens
I want to kick my bad habits but they're so comforting.
And I know I have to go the hard route because if I don't, I'm going to spend the rest of my life being miserable. I can't turn my back on that path anymore. No matter what, I know that I can do and do it well. I just don't want to put in the effort. fuuuck