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as of saterday it appears that he's not coming.... maybe i'm wrong, but he stil seems like all he's doing is getting fucked up rather than trying to find away to see me... wtf....
i mean you say you love me, but do you actually mean it? is this just a fucking game for you, "play with Martina's god damn emotions and start hurting her in every way possible"... why can't you just fuckin' pull it together and do things that you say your ganna fucking do??? this bullshit is starting to get me very frustrated... it's been six and a half fucking months and not one fuckin' visit. you had plans to come down here many times but they fell fucking apart due to some problem with either a drug or a car or you not trying at all... this time seems to be no fuckin' different... just let me know what the fuckin' deal is... call me when you have the chance... call my house, not my celll(it's broken). i left my home # with your mom...
and don't fucking explode at me for this one bcz i have perfect reason to get angry... and i'm sick of you denying things... so please, if you have anything to say in response to this just fucking call me...
i mean you say you love me, but do you actually mean it? is this just a fucking game for you, "play with Martina's god damn emotions and start hurting her in every way possible"... why can't you just fuckin' pull it together and do things that you say your ganna fucking do??? this bullshit is starting to get me very frustrated... it's been six and a half fucking months and not one fuckin' visit. you had plans to come down here many times but they fell fucking apart due to some problem with either a drug or a car or you not trying at all... this time seems to be no fuckin' different... just let me know what the fuckin' deal is... call me when you have the chance... call my house, not my celll(it's broken). i left my home # with your mom...
and don't fucking explode at me for this one bcz i have perfect reason to get angry... and i'm sick of you denying things... so please, if you have anything to say in response to this just fucking call me...