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One minute I think okey I can do this, then the next minute I panic thinking I can't and I don't want to do this, I feel disgusted and scared at the same time it hurts (mentally) so much and I don't know where to go or what to do, or who to talk to. I got myself in to this mess but I just can't see away out of it. Everything just feel so meaningless and the consequences is that because I feel crap I don't treat the people I care about like they deserve to be treated and that makes me feel worse....it never ends until it ends.