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I have always even in my darkest moment believed that somehow everything is going to be okay. Now I'm not sure that everything is going to be okay. Some weeks ago or maybe it was one week ago I don't really remember I went out and drank with some friends at the end of the evening I got so mad at a friend I just had to get the hell away form there, not that I think she noticed, but anyway I don't get that mad ever I bottle up stuff inside I don't get mad like I did. It scared me cause it ain't me, I don't want to be a lose canon going of at anything.
It feels like I'm losing control over my own thoughts and that just can't happen, because if I can't control my thoughts then what the hell will happen??
I really should do what Therese tells me to do..GROW UP! But I don't want to grow up hell I don't even know if I have the capabilities to do so...and how does a poor 20 year old girl how refuses to grow up fit in society..she doesn't
Jag tror inte jag vill vara med och leka nå mer nu..
It feels like I'm losing control over my own thoughts and that just can't happen, because if I can't control my thoughts then what the hell will happen??
I really should do what Therese tells me to do..GROW UP! But I don't want to grow up hell I don't even know if I have the capabilities to do so...and how does a poor 20 year old girl how refuses to grow up fit in society..she doesn't
Jag tror inte jag vill vara med och leka nå mer nu..