Pathetic emotional shit
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
what have I become
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
I don't know what people you should count as friends but that was not what I was going to write about...
After my mother died my friends became my lifeline, my way out sort of speaking...well not all my "friends" Therese and Tessan I guess was who became my way out....they are the people I probably owe my life too...
Before my mother died I preferred to stay at home on like Fridays and Saturdays watching game shows with my mother instead of going to parties with my friends..I love being home I I had no need to like go out and party and stuff...but when I did go out with my friend I always knew no matter what all I had to do was call and my mother would come and get me...I don't have that anymore and I don't have anybody I can call when I feel bad...I want that too...back to the point okey...
Now most of the time I cant stand being at home ..I hate it....but I haven't had to spend that much time at home because Therese yeah yeah and sometimes Tessan too have dragged me out and done things normal things I guess but still it have mad me happier and taken away much of the pain...I guess I want to say thanks to my friends for making my life endurable. I owe you my life. Thank you.
I want to thank the damn people on the internet too for putting up with me and tried to give me advice and making me feel a little better...so Thanks.
I two-three years ago I could never ever imagined that my friends would mean so much to me as they do...I could never imagine I would let any human being come so near me as they have.. I could never imagine letting myself say things to my friends and trust them not to laugh at me...I never ever wanted to be this vulnerable to their words....
..It was just that the comment on my LJ that Therese wrote I took the wrong way and I KNOW I do know it wasn't really meant that way...But my brain and my feeling isn't communicating right now..I just got so mad when I read it and I don't seem to be able to let it go...I just felt like if she thinks that why don't she just get the hell away from me...hmm and I guess she should be the one mad at me for acting like a big baby and messing with the USA trip and shit...I'm just wating for something to go to hell with our USA trip it is to good to be true I guess...and if I mess it up it's easier to deal with I guess....
I will make you hurt
what have I become
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
I don't know what people you should count as friends but that was not what I was going to write about...
After my mother died my friends became my lifeline, my way out sort of speaking...well not all my "friends" Therese and Tessan I guess was who became my way out....they are the people I probably owe my life too...
Before my mother died I preferred to stay at home on like Fridays and Saturdays watching game shows with my mother instead of going to parties with my friends..I love being home I I had no need to like go out and party and stuff...but when I did go out with my friend I always knew no matter what all I had to do was call and my mother would come and get me...I don't have that anymore and I don't have anybody I can call when I feel bad...I want that too...back to the point okey...
Now most of the time I cant stand being at home ..I hate it....but I haven't had to spend that much time at home because Therese yeah yeah and sometimes Tessan too have dragged me out and done things normal things I guess but still it have mad me happier and taken away much of the pain...I guess I want to say thanks to my friends for making my life endurable. I owe you my life. Thank you.
I want to thank the damn people on the internet too for putting up with me and tried to give me advice and making me feel a little better...so Thanks.
I two-three years ago I could never ever imagined that my friends would mean so much to me as they do...I could never imagine I would let any human being come so near me as they have.. I could never imagine letting myself say things to my friends and trust them not to laugh at me...I never ever wanted to be this vulnerable to their words....
..It was just that the comment on my LJ that Therese wrote I took the wrong way and I KNOW I do know it wasn't really meant that way...But my brain and my feeling isn't communicating right now..I just got so mad when I read it and I don't seem to be able to let it go...I just felt like if she thinks that why don't she just get the hell away from me...hmm and I guess she should be the one mad at me for acting like a big baby and messing with the USA trip and shit...I'm just wating for something to go to hell with our USA trip it is to good to be true I guess...and if I mess it up it's easier to deal with I guess....