Samhain and where I am with Wicca
Tomorrow will be the one time I'm doing Samhain up right. I'm leading ritual at the UofT Pagan Society at 7pm tomorrow. Everyone who wishes is welcome. I'm doing a fairly traditional Wiccan Samhain rit. It's the first ritual I'll have led in most of a year.
My decision as far as what I'm doing with Wicca:
I'm looking to find a replacement for myself as Wiccan Chaplain because now that I'm stripped of my degrees and lineage (last year) I don't feel properly qualified to work as the official Wiccan Chaplain anymore. Add to that the fact that I've realized that I was spending more time and energy on my Wiccan practice than I really felt comfortable with, and I think it's time for me to take time as a layperson more than a Priestess anyway.
I want to be a participant and live my life as a Wiccan, not obligation to teach or lead... just spend some time as a "circle bump" as we used to call it. I'm hoping that spending time as a participant will rekindle my energy toward Wiccan practice, which waned significantly up to the hiaitus I was in over the last year and continues to be on the low side.
Then again, I often feel energized after a good ritual. If it goes well tomorrow maybe that will help some. At least I'll get to say goodbye to the waning year that I took off.
My decision as far as what I'm doing with Wicca:
I'm looking to find a replacement for myself as Wiccan Chaplain because now that I'm stripped of my degrees and lineage (last year) I don't feel properly qualified to work as the official Wiccan Chaplain anymore. Add to that the fact that I've realized that I was spending more time and energy on my Wiccan practice than I really felt comfortable with, and I think it's time for me to take time as a layperson more than a Priestess anyway.
I want to be a participant and live my life as a Wiccan, not obligation to teach or lead... just spend some time as a "circle bump" as we used to call it. I'm hoping that spending time as a participant will rekindle my energy toward Wiccan practice, which waned significantly up to the hiaitus I was in over the last year and continues to be on the low side.
Then again, I often feel energized after a good ritual. If it goes well tomorrow maybe that will help some. At least I'll get to say goodbye to the waning year that I took off.