Turn away
You know the ST:TNG episode when the Klingons turn their backs on Worf and turf him out of the Klingon brotherhood?
Well, that's what's happened to me today. My HP has turned his back on me. He has recinded my initiations and degrees. He has "divorced" himself from me as my teacher.
What he didn't know is that this was what I wanted, but not this way. I had hoped to tell him I've realized myself that this is not my path and hoped to bring closure by agreeing to take down our coven and move along a solitary path from here. He was too impatient to wait for me to tell him I'd reached that conclusion.
I'm disappointed that he chose to recind my initiations in his anger at me for not being the student he needed. He hasn't been the teacher I needed either. Neither of us got what we wanted. We both made mistakes. We both should take responsibility for that. We both lose, this way.
I am no longer an Alexandrian High Priestess.
I'm still changing. I don't know what I am anymore. Now I have to figure out what to do about my chaplaincy at UofT. Should I continue with it? Would they accept me continuing to be involved there after this?
Edit to add:
I've sent him a reply. I've decided that no matter what his opinion, mine is that my initiations are well earned. I will simply not consider myself Alexandrian in any way anymore. My friendship with him is damaged by his selfish reaction and unwillingness to communicate in person with me. I found that cowardly.
Well, that's what's happened to me today. My HP has turned his back on me. He has recinded my initiations and degrees. He has "divorced" himself from me as my teacher.
What he didn't know is that this was what I wanted, but not this way. I had hoped to tell him I've realized myself that this is not my path and hoped to bring closure by agreeing to take down our coven and move along a solitary path from here. He was too impatient to wait for me to tell him I'd reached that conclusion.
I'm disappointed that he chose to recind my initiations in his anger at me for not being the student he needed. He hasn't been the teacher I needed either. Neither of us got what we wanted. We both made mistakes. We both should take responsibility for that. We both lose, this way.
I am no longer an Alexandrian High Priestess.
I'm still changing. I don't know what I am anymore. Now I have to figure out what to do about my chaplaincy at UofT. Should I continue with it? Would they accept me continuing to be involved there after this?
Edit to add:
I've sent him a reply. I've decided that no matter what his opinion, mine is that my initiations are well earned. I will simply not consider myself Alexandrian in any way anymore. My friendship with him is damaged by his selfish reaction and unwillingness to communicate in person with me. I found that cowardly.