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Title: That's When We'll Explode
Rating: PG-13?
Pairing: Sirius/Remus
Summary: Part 35 of the Smitten series; Sirius tries to make Remus forget about the previous day's events.
Warnings: None
Need to catch up? http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2817005/1/ Then refer back to LJ for the pr0n. ^_~
Please download and listen to: Chapter 35: That’s When We’ll Explode Muse: Unintended
Chapter 1: My First Valentine: Postal Service: Angel Pumping Gas
Chapter 2: The Potions Essay: Plain White T's: Come on Over
Chapter 3: Toast and Honey: Frank Sinatra: I've Got You Under My Skin
Chapter 4: The First Kiss: Goo Goo Dolls: Iris
Chapter 5: Ira Dulcis: Jewel: Standing Still
Chapter 6: Loss of Face: Rammstein: Otherworld
Chapter 7: The Hospital Wing: Collide: Howie day
Chapter 8: Shy: Muse: Bliss
Chapter 9: The Letter: Muse: Butterflies and Hurricanes
Chapter 10: Tutoring Snape: Default: Wasting My Time
Chapter 11: That Day After: Yellowcard: Cigarette
Chapter 12: Exposed: Finch: Stay With Me
Chapter 13: Just Because All-American Rejects: Dance Inside
Chapter 14: Feeling Threatened: Muse: Apocalypse Now
Chapter 15: Meeting Remus's Parents: Third Eye Blind: Semi-Charmed Life
Chapter 16: The Home He Never Had: All-American Rejects: Dirty Little Secret
Chapter 17: The Shedding of Clothes: Massive Attack: Inertia Creeps
Chapter 18: The Awkward Talk: Third Eye Blind: Never Let You Go
Chapter 19: The Secret: Frank Sinatra: Fly Me to the Moon
Chapter 20: The Unexpected Reward: Alanis Morissette: All I Really Want
Chapter 21: Decline: Yellowcard: Only One
Chapter 22: Quiet: Third Eye Blind: Motorcycle Drive-By
Chapter 23: Unfortunate Discovery: Life of a Salesman: Yellowcard
Chapter 24: The End of an Era: Jewel: You Were Meant for Me
Chapter 25: Retreat: Plain White T's: Hey There Delilah
Chapter 26: The Morning of September First: Oasis: Wonderwall
Chapter 27: The First Success: SpillCanvas: This is For Keeps
Chapter 28: The Question of Christmas Olivia Olson: All I Want For Christmas Is You
Chapter 29: All To Themselves: Third Eye Blind: Blinded
Chapter 30: The Resident Fuck-up: Jimmy Eat World: 23
Chapter 31: Unfulfilled Plain White T's: The Lonely September
Chapter 32: Putting It All Behind Us Silverchair: After All These Years
Chapter 33: Motorcycle Romance The Postal Service: Such Great Heights
Chapter 34: When It Really Hit Him Jewel: Foolish Games
Remus slept in Sirius’s arms for most of the day, his head tucked in against his shoulder. They were not even lying down; Sirius was sitting up on the couch with Moony cradled in his lap, the telly on very quietly but not really being watched. Sirius’s hand stroked through Remus’s hair as he slept a troubled sleep, his unconscious form often giving a jerk or a soft cry, and Sirius would squeeze him then. Remus would open his eyes every half hour or so, a wide-eyed, broken expression in his eyes as he sat up straight on that lap and stared at Sirius as though looking for an explanation, but Sirius would pull him back down into a comfortable snuggle and kiss his hair, and Remus would fall back to sleep.
When Remus finally woke up for good, he did not sit up but held himself closer to Sirius. “I’ve a headache,” he complained in the smallest voice, and Sirius summoned a bottle of pills from the medicine cabinet. He poured two into his palm and offered them to Remus, who swallowed them without water or anything else then lifted himself shakily off of Sirius’s lap to stumble to the kitchen.
Sirius hurried after him, forcing him to sit at the table as he put the kettle on. As the water heated up, he stood behind Remus and took his head in his hands, rubbing at his temples in an attempt to massage the ache away. “Relax, Moony,” he whispered, and Remus reached up to take those hands and pull them down. Sirius knelt beside the chair and laid a hand on Remus’s thigh, resting his cheek there, too, and he felt the other choke before a tear fell and splattered on his cheek. “Shhh…”
Remus buried his face in one hand and clutched Sirius’s fingers with other, sniffling. The kettle began to whistle, and Sirius rose up to go pour a steaming cup for Remus. Bringing it to the table, he pushed it back to cool and sat on the chair beside his ex-boyfriend, arms reaching out to bring him in against his chest. “Sirius…” The sound was pathetic, and Sirius pulled Moony into his lap and embraced him tightly.
For a long while they sat like that, then Remus moved to his chair again and drank his tea, never removing the teabag from the water. Sirius did it for him, setting it on a saucer and rubbing Remus’s back. “We’ll go for a ride, if you like,” he said quietly, even though it was raining. They still did not own helmets, nor did they care. Remus gave the smallest nod, wanting to get lost in the roar of the machine, so when he finished his tea, he got up and disappeared for a few moments before he came back dressed presentably and warmly, hands shaky as they ran through his own hair.
Sirius rose and went over to him, straightening his collar before his hands were caught. Remus looked tearfully into his eyes before his arms slid around his neck and they were kissing, his lips salty and wet against Sirius’s. The brunette’s arms slid slowly around Remus’s waist and drew him flush against his chest, teeth clacking lightly against the other’s before they both fell into the rhythm and into each other. The tension slowly eased and it was as though they had never stopped kissing in the past near-two years. The kiss ended and Remus did not pull back, instead resting his chin on Sirius’s shoulder and squeezing him. “I love you.”
Sirius nodded and swayed with him for a few moments, whispering his devotion to Remus in his ear and rubbing the small of his back in small circles. A knock at the door caught Sirius’s attention, and he called for whomever it was to come in, a sad smile spreading across his lips as James and Lily hurried inside and over to the pair, Lily’s arms flinging around the both of them and James’s hands on Sirius’s shoulders. “Oh Remus, sweetheart,” Lily whispered as Remus began to shake again, and Sirius shook his head at her, pleased that she backed off of him. He was still tucked into Sirius’s neck, seemingly latched onto him. “We came over as soon as we read…We’re so sorry…” Lily’s voice was wavering.
Sirius smiled at them and moved to extricate himself from Remus’s hold, and he turned to face James. “You caught us at a bad time, I’m afraid,” he sighed, and he watched Remus as he went to look out the window. The rain was hardly more than a light mist, and he closed the window before putting his cup in the sink and beginning to wash it. Lily frowned and went to help him, her hand resting on his back, and he leaned into her. “I was going to take him for a ride on the bike, get him out of the house for some fresh air. Thanks for coming over, James…” He hugged his best friend and sighed before he pulled back and went to Remus, seeing his trembling hands causing ripples in the dishwater. He reached in and brought one soapy hand out, lacing their fingers.
Lily watched them, watched as Remus forgot she was there and dropped the cup onto the bottom of the sink before sliding close to tuck his head in against Sirius again. “Ah, we just wanted to see how you were doing,” she said quietly, and she leaned over to kiss Remus’s tearful cheek before smiling at Sirius. “We’ll let you take him out, Sirius. Maybe dinner would be nice, too? Something light on his stomach.” Sirius nodded at the suggestion and closed his eyes as the couple embraced them, then the Potters were gone.
Remus sighed when they were gone and leaned up to kiss Sirius again before he sniffed and wiped his nose with the back of his hand. “Dinner sounds nice, Pads,” he said in a thick voice, and Sirius kissed his cheek. Already, they were falling back into their old habits. Taking Remus to the door, he slid a warm coat around his shoulders and put one on for himself, putting his boots on and helping Remus lace his before they went out. He removed the cover from the bike and sat down on it, starting it with a roar and smiling as Remus attached to him from behind, his head tucked into his hair as Sirius took off roaring down the streets.
They rode for a long time through London, Remus resting against Sirius and holding tightly to his stomach. His eyes were closed, the wind whipping his eyelashes, and Sirius’s hair nearly covered his head. He had never felt so wrapped up in him. Sirius smiled and drove him through the darkening streets, attracting the lusty looks of women as they drove into the heart of London. He had a very specific restaurant in mind, and when they got there, he parked the bike beneath the streetlamp and let Remus get off before he began to climb off as well, setting up the kickstand, but Remus pushed him back onto the seat and climbed in front of him, facing him with a small smile. It was the first he had shown all day. Sirius pulled him close there in the street on that monstrous bike and kissed him, arms all about him, and he tasted his tongue eagerly, eyes closed.
Remus pulled back and looked him in the eyes. “I lied about not wanting to feel it, Padfoot. I lied…” He looked as though he might cry again, so Sirius drew him in again for another heart-stopping kiss. There were whispers behind them from a group of patrons to the restaurant, but they went ignored as the boys lost themselves in their little world of bikes and moons and absolute freedom.
When they went in, they requested a private booth in the back, and Remus sat very close to Sirius, an arm wrapped around his waist. “I’ll have to go to Mum’s house tomorrow,” he said quietly, and he sighed heavily as Sirius kissed his hair. “You’ll come with me, won’t you Sirius? I can’t go by…by myself.” He caught himself, not wanting to cry in public even though they were quite out of sight. Sirius took his hand and drew it to his lips with a nod, and he closed his eyes as Remus moved into his arms completely. They were quiet then; no words needed to be said.
When they had their food, which consisted of two small salads (neither had a large appetite), Remus looked up into Sirius’s eyes and gave a little half-smile. “Be with me again, Sirius…”
Sirius paused from snatching his fork and moved in to kiss Remus lightly on the lips before he whispered, “I never left you.” Remus’s arms wrapped around his neck, and they clung to one another in quiet desperation. They needed one another, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin, and they had always known.
Rating: PG-13?
Pairing: Sirius/Remus
Summary: Part 35 of the Smitten series; Sirius tries to make Remus forget about the previous day's events.
Warnings: None
Need to catch up? http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2817005/1/ Then refer back to LJ for the pr0n. ^_~
Please download and listen to: Chapter 35: That’s When We’ll Explode Muse: Unintended
Chapter 1: My First Valentine: Postal Service: Angel Pumping Gas
Chapter 2: The Potions Essay: Plain White T's: Come on Over
Chapter 3: Toast and Honey: Frank Sinatra: I've Got You Under My Skin
Chapter 4: The First Kiss: Goo Goo Dolls: Iris
Chapter 5: Ira Dulcis: Jewel: Standing Still
Chapter 6: Loss of Face: Rammstein: Otherworld
Chapter 7: The Hospital Wing: Collide: Howie day
Chapter 8: Shy: Muse: Bliss
Chapter 9: The Letter: Muse: Butterflies and Hurricanes
Chapter 10: Tutoring Snape: Default: Wasting My Time
Chapter 11: That Day After: Yellowcard: Cigarette
Chapter 12: Exposed: Finch: Stay With Me
Chapter 13: Just Because All-American Rejects: Dance Inside
Chapter 14: Feeling Threatened: Muse: Apocalypse Now
Chapter 15: Meeting Remus's Parents: Third Eye Blind: Semi-Charmed Life
Chapter 16: The Home He Never Had: All-American Rejects: Dirty Little Secret
Chapter 17: The Shedding of Clothes: Massive Attack: Inertia Creeps
Chapter 18: The Awkward Talk: Third Eye Blind: Never Let You Go
Chapter 19: The Secret: Frank Sinatra: Fly Me to the Moon
Chapter 20: The Unexpected Reward: Alanis Morissette: All I Really Want
Chapter 21: Decline: Yellowcard: Only One
Chapter 22: Quiet: Third Eye Blind: Motorcycle Drive-By
Chapter 23: Unfortunate Discovery: Life of a Salesman: Yellowcard
Chapter 24: The End of an Era: Jewel: You Were Meant for Me
Chapter 25: Retreat: Plain White T's: Hey There Delilah
Chapter 26: The Morning of September First: Oasis: Wonderwall
Chapter 27: The First Success: SpillCanvas: This is For Keeps
Chapter 28: The Question of Christmas Olivia Olson: All I Want For Christmas Is You
Chapter 29: All To Themselves: Third Eye Blind: Blinded
Chapter 30: The Resident Fuck-up: Jimmy Eat World: 23
Chapter 31: Unfulfilled Plain White T's: The Lonely September
Chapter 32: Putting It All Behind Us Silverchair: After All These Years
Chapter 33: Motorcycle Romance The Postal Service: Such Great Heights
Chapter 34: When It Really Hit Him Jewel: Foolish Games
Remus slept in Sirius’s arms for most of the day, his head tucked in against his shoulder. They were not even lying down; Sirius was sitting up on the couch with Moony cradled in his lap, the telly on very quietly but not really being watched. Sirius’s hand stroked through Remus’s hair as he slept a troubled sleep, his unconscious form often giving a jerk or a soft cry, and Sirius would squeeze him then. Remus would open his eyes every half hour or so, a wide-eyed, broken expression in his eyes as he sat up straight on that lap and stared at Sirius as though looking for an explanation, but Sirius would pull him back down into a comfortable snuggle and kiss his hair, and Remus would fall back to sleep.
When Remus finally woke up for good, he did not sit up but held himself closer to Sirius. “I’ve a headache,” he complained in the smallest voice, and Sirius summoned a bottle of pills from the medicine cabinet. He poured two into his palm and offered them to Remus, who swallowed them without water or anything else then lifted himself shakily off of Sirius’s lap to stumble to the kitchen.
Sirius hurried after him, forcing him to sit at the table as he put the kettle on. As the water heated up, he stood behind Remus and took his head in his hands, rubbing at his temples in an attempt to massage the ache away. “Relax, Moony,” he whispered, and Remus reached up to take those hands and pull them down. Sirius knelt beside the chair and laid a hand on Remus’s thigh, resting his cheek there, too, and he felt the other choke before a tear fell and splattered on his cheek. “Shhh…”
Remus buried his face in one hand and clutched Sirius’s fingers with other, sniffling. The kettle began to whistle, and Sirius rose up to go pour a steaming cup for Remus. Bringing it to the table, he pushed it back to cool and sat on the chair beside his ex-boyfriend, arms reaching out to bring him in against his chest. “Sirius…” The sound was pathetic, and Sirius pulled Moony into his lap and embraced him tightly.
For a long while they sat like that, then Remus moved to his chair again and drank his tea, never removing the teabag from the water. Sirius did it for him, setting it on a saucer and rubbing Remus’s back. “We’ll go for a ride, if you like,” he said quietly, even though it was raining. They still did not own helmets, nor did they care. Remus gave the smallest nod, wanting to get lost in the roar of the machine, so when he finished his tea, he got up and disappeared for a few moments before he came back dressed presentably and warmly, hands shaky as they ran through his own hair.
Sirius rose and went over to him, straightening his collar before his hands were caught. Remus looked tearfully into his eyes before his arms slid around his neck and they were kissing, his lips salty and wet against Sirius’s. The brunette’s arms slid slowly around Remus’s waist and drew him flush against his chest, teeth clacking lightly against the other’s before they both fell into the rhythm and into each other. The tension slowly eased and it was as though they had never stopped kissing in the past near-two years. The kiss ended and Remus did not pull back, instead resting his chin on Sirius’s shoulder and squeezing him. “I love you.”
Sirius nodded and swayed with him for a few moments, whispering his devotion to Remus in his ear and rubbing the small of his back in small circles. A knock at the door caught Sirius’s attention, and he called for whomever it was to come in, a sad smile spreading across his lips as James and Lily hurried inside and over to the pair, Lily’s arms flinging around the both of them and James’s hands on Sirius’s shoulders. “Oh Remus, sweetheart,” Lily whispered as Remus began to shake again, and Sirius shook his head at her, pleased that she backed off of him. He was still tucked into Sirius’s neck, seemingly latched onto him. “We came over as soon as we read…We’re so sorry…” Lily’s voice was wavering.
Sirius smiled at them and moved to extricate himself from Remus’s hold, and he turned to face James. “You caught us at a bad time, I’m afraid,” he sighed, and he watched Remus as he went to look out the window. The rain was hardly more than a light mist, and he closed the window before putting his cup in the sink and beginning to wash it. Lily frowned and went to help him, her hand resting on his back, and he leaned into her. “I was going to take him for a ride on the bike, get him out of the house for some fresh air. Thanks for coming over, James…” He hugged his best friend and sighed before he pulled back and went to Remus, seeing his trembling hands causing ripples in the dishwater. He reached in and brought one soapy hand out, lacing their fingers.
Lily watched them, watched as Remus forgot she was there and dropped the cup onto the bottom of the sink before sliding close to tuck his head in against Sirius again. “Ah, we just wanted to see how you were doing,” she said quietly, and she leaned over to kiss Remus’s tearful cheek before smiling at Sirius. “We’ll let you take him out, Sirius. Maybe dinner would be nice, too? Something light on his stomach.” Sirius nodded at the suggestion and closed his eyes as the couple embraced them, then the Potters were gone.
Remus sighed when they were gone and leaned up to kiss Sirius again before he sniffed and wiped his nose with the back of his hand. “Dinner sounds nice, Pads,” he said in a thick voice, and Sirius kissed his cheek. Already, they were falling back into their old habits. Taking Remus to the door, he slid a warm coat around his shoulders and put one on for himself, putting his boots on and helping Remus lace his before they went out. He removed the cover from the bike and sat down on it, starting it with a roar and smiling as Remus attached to him from behind, his head tucked into his hair as Sirius took off roaring down the streets.
They rode for a long time through London, Remus resting against Sirius and holding tightly to his stomach. His eyes were closed, the wind whipping his eyelashes, and Sirius’s hair nearly covered his head. He had never felt so wrapped up in him. Sirius smiled and drove him through the darkening streets, attracting the lusty looks of women as they drove into the heart of London. He had a very specific restaurant in mind, and when they got there, he parked the bike beneath the streetlamp and let Remus get off before he began to climb off as well, setting up the kickstand, but Remus pushed him back onto the seat and climbed in front of him, facing him with a small smile. It was the first he had shown all day. Sirius pulled him close there in the street on that monstrous bike and kissed him, arms all about him, and he tasted his tongue eagerly, eyes closed.
Remus pulled back and looked him in the eyes. “I lied about not wanting to feel it, Padfoot. I lied…” He looked as though he might cry again, so Sirius drew him in again for another heart-stopping kiss. There were whispers behind them from a group of patrons to the restaurant, but they went ignored as the boys lost themselves in their little world of bikes and moons and absolute freedom.
When they went in, they requested a private booth in the back, and Remus sat very close to Sirius, an arm wrapped around his waist. “I’ll have to go to Mum’s house tomorrow,” he said quietly, and he sighed heavily as Sirius kissed his hair. “You’ll come with me, won’t you Sirius? I can’t go by…by myself.” He caught himself, not wanting to cry in public even though they were quite out of sight. Sirius took his hand and drew it to his lips with a nod, and he closed his eyes as Remus moved into his arms completely. They were quiet then; no words needed to be said.
When they had their food, which consisted of two small salads (neither had a large appetite), Remus looked up into Sirius’s eyes and gave a little half-smile. “Be with me again, Sirius…”
Sirius paused from snatching his fork and moved in to kiss Remus lightly on the lips before he whispered, “I never left you.” Remus’s arms wrapped around his neck, and they clung to one another in quiet desperation. They needed one another, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin, and they had always known.