"She laid down in her party dress, and never got up... needless to say, she missed the party..."
yeah. so I just had the best day of my life, and now I’m having post-fun-day-depression. Tina and I went all over the place... I told my mom everywhere we went, and I was kinda surprised that she didn’t beat me. We hopped a bus downtown and took pictures and walked around everywhere. I seriously think we walked for probably about 10 miles. Which is ridiculous. crazy. Then we hopped the bus back to old Bill town, and it was like the entire day downtown was a dream, it was so unreal... then we went to Glen Park and took more pictures, I used up my entire role of film and Tina finished I think 3. I can’t wait to get them developed... so excited. >sigh<
How ‘bout now, baby? Whatcha wanna do?
I’m trying to keep that feel good feeling, but I forgot to take my meds today because I was out all day, and now it’s like I have a mood swing every 5 seconds... literally. I can’t decide if I’m incredibly happy or disgustingly sad. I’m playing happy music...!... yeah. getting really depressed right now. It’s one of those nights... now I’m getting so lonely and I don’t want to be alone I have to be around people please help me I’m so afraid of being by myself I feel like such a little kid I’m so scared someone please save me I’m a scared little girl drowning in helpless remnants of memories
I feel so artsy... I’m probably going to go create some more pages in my scrapbook... I want to make more disturbing ones tonight... I really wish I had all the pictures I took today... I can’t wait to put them in...
There’s this one page in my scrapbook where I cut out a picture of an angel out of a Time magazine and I colored her wings in red, and she had this look of distress on her face that broke your heart in and of itself... and then the blood I added on her wings made me want to cry
I can’t ever look at that page without stifling a cry anymore
I can’t wait to get out of here anymore
“Someone please tell me! oh, mm, what is it they say? Maybe I will know one day...”
"The pouring rain is no place for a bicylce ride, try to hit the brakes and you slide and you slide and you slide..."
How ‘bout now, baby? Whatcha wanna do?
I’m trying to keep that feel good feeling, but I forgot to take my meds today because I was out all day, and now it’s like I have a mood swing every 5 seconds... literally. I can’t decide if I’m incredibly happy or disgustingly sad. I’m playing happy music...!... yeah. getting really depressed right now. It’s one of those nights... now I’m getting so lonely and I don’t want to be alone I have to be around people please help me I’m so afraid of being by myself I feel like such a little kid I’m so scared someone please save me I’m a scared little girl drowning in helpless remnants of memories
I feel so artsy... I’m probably going to go create some more pages in my scrapbook... I want to make more disturbing ones tonight... I really wish I had all the pictures I took today... I can’t wait to put them in...
There’s this one page in my scrapbook where I cut out a picture of an angel out of a Time magazine and I colored her wings in red, and she had this look of distress on her face that broke your heart in and of itself... and then the blood I added on her wings made me want to cry
I can’t ever look at that page without stifling a cry anymore
I can’t wait to get out of here anymore
“Someone please tell me! oh, mm, what is it they say? Maybe I will know one day...”
"The pouring rain is no place for a bicylce ride, try to hit the brakes and you slide and you slide and you slide..."