WoW
.. I still don't believe that Gina made me so mad that I threw my phone @ Laura's door, causing it 2 break. I have never gotten that mad @ someone like that in my life-- and tha funny thing is, i still don't know why i threw my phone. Like ionno where all that anger came from. I knew why she threw her fone n broke it a few weeks ago [lol bcuz of me-- duh but still i noe tha reason] but i have no clue why i did that. It also kills me bcuz now i gotta spend more $$ on a fone [that i dont have]. It sucks being foneless... it really does. Communication breakdown 4 sure lol. But yeah lets see how much money mike is gunna spend... [yes , money coming outta MY pocket]
- $670.25 on tha rest of tuition [4/17]
- $84 for my phone bill [4/19]
- $220 Tau Kappa Epsilon initiation fee [sometime soon]
- $150-$200 on a new phone [again... sometime soon]
Thats a lot of damn money for me... im flirting with $1000 or so, right? I guess i gotta tell Target to take me off Leave of Absence or i gotta result to becoming Young Jeezy and start sellin that blow lol. But yeah, thats been tha last 40+hrs of my life. I can only look 4ward to initiation this weekend and thats about it.
I have been thinking too-- i know what i want when it comes 2 girls. Since tha whole Gina thing collasped during spring break, I have not had a person that I can be emotionally close 2. Like i don't have someone who is on that level mentally... like a cuddle buddy. I think I'll call that mental affection. I'm also lacking physical affection as well, and that kinda hurts me too. So yeah thats wut im looking for [and im an idiot for that bcuz summer is a month or so away so ima have a great time lookin for that].
Why do i get into tha shit that i get into??
Hmm so what's next for me? I think I'll go back into my room and juss go back 2 sleep. I mean i did that all day-- so am i really gunna miss out on shit?