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All of a sudden, I feel so... emotionless. About everything. I'm not excited, happy, mad or depressed about anything. It's as if someone just stole all my emotions away. Perhaps I could be feeling a slight bit of sadness, being the day before Valentine's Day and everything. This will be the first Valentine's Day I'm spending since freshman year. I don't know why, but that sort of bugs me. Last year was definitely the only real good Valentine's Day I had. (I was sick my sophomore year, but Juan, you were still a great Valentine) And I thought maybe this year could be even better. But little did I know that things would turn out this way. I cry but I don't feel anything and I don't exactly know why. Everything's just blank.
This isn't just about him, either. I should be excited about what's coming up next. What with Cultural Convention and all that. But i really am not. I don't care much for Spring Break. I'm not anticipating Field Day. It feels like I have absolutely no motivation to continue developing my life here. I need inspiration. Motivation. All I want to do is just sit at home and do nothing or go clubbing where thinking about problems with my life is quite rare.
This is so confusing.
All of a sudden, I feel so... emotionless. About everything. I'm not excited, happy, mad or depressed about anything. It's as if someone just stole all my emotions away. Perhaps I could be feeling a slight bit of sadness, being the day before Valentine's Day and everything. This will be the first Valentine's Day I'm spending since freshman year. I don't know why, but that sort of bugs me. Last year was definitely the only real good Valentine's Day I had. (I was sick my sophomore year, but Juan, you were still a great Valentine) And I thought maybe this year could be even better. But little did I know that things would turn out this way. I cry but I don't feel anything and I don't exactly know why. Everything's just blank.
This isn't just about him, either. I should be excited about what's coming up next. What with Cultural Convention and all that. But i really am not. I don't care much for Spring Break. I'm not anticipating Field Day. It feels like I have absolutely no motivation to continue developing my life here. I need inspiration. Motivation. All I want to do is just sit at home and do nothing or go clubbing where thinking about problems with my life is quite rare.
This is so confusing.