"Your Optimism is Showing!"
I was in such a good mood today until I read something I wrote to someone a few days ago. It's so sad to see that I've finally broken down into someone I never wanted to be but, I honestly had no other choice. I haven't really allowed myself to be happy because I keep seeing a light of hope in every bad situation and so I hang on even more. I saw hope in a recent situation. But I beat it down until I could no longer see it. For the first time in my life I didn't choose to fix the situation. I finally let go in hopes that I would realize I didn't feel the same way anymore and found out I did still feel just not as strongly.
On the good side,I ended up actually seeing the ugly truth. I don't have this glorified view of this person anymore. I'm actually disappointed and sad for them. They once said they thought the rules had changed. But just so this person knows...they didn't. You just got your revenge and now what? Your actions no longer surprise me. Now, you look desperate. You don't even seem to be happy just being you. You even acted a bit baffled by the concept of having confidence and taking a little pride in who you are. I'm really sad for you. But I've wasted enough of my time.
As for me, I saw all the bad things that I'd overlooked before and now I'm better. It hurts to move on this way but I don't really see any other way when I'm the only one who tried to fix it. Basically, I'm saying my optimism has taken this situation as far as it could go and now I'm left with the only option..."really" moving on. Just had to get that out. Now I feel better:)
On the good side,I ended up actually seeing the ugly truth. I don't have this glorified view of this person anymore. I'm actually disappointed and sad for them. They once said they thought the rules had changed. But just so this person knows...they didn't. You just got your revenge and now what? Your actions no longer surprise me. Now, you look desperate. You don't even seem to be happy just being you. You even acted a bit baffled by the concept of having confidence and taking a little pride in who you are. I'm really sad for you. But I've wasted enough of my time.
As for me, I saw all the bad things that I'd overlooked before and now I'm better. It hurts to move on this way but I don't really see any other way when I'm the only one who tried to fix it. Basically, I'm saying my optimism has taken this situation as far as it could go and now I'm left with the only option..."really" moving on. Just had to get that out. Now I feel better:)