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blackmesh

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Aug 28, 2005 02:34

I suppose it's time to post again. I left off after my first time actually having sex. I suppose now I must explain the first encounter I had with dominant to submissive sexual play. Astonishingly enough, this came way before my first one night stand, my first time making love, or my first time with more than one partner or a partner of the ( Read more... )

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Wow just wow! 27yearoldvirgin September 15 2005, 03:54:01 UTC

I shall continue to dream of this impossible bliss.

I especially like the Dom/sub undertones.

I'm a definite submissive myself (allllllll that stuff is a turn on)

That might be one of the reasons why I've yet to score at this age, girls tend to want an assertive guy more often than not... or so it seems and I'm anything but.

By the way hope it doesn't bother you that I posted here, seeing how you don't know me, or have me on your friends list.

I found my way here and can't seem to pull away.

This sort of posts reminds me of just what I've missed out on all these years, but god is it 'hot'! :)

Re: Wow just wow! blackmesh September 15 2005, 13:49:08 UTC

Well, it wasn't always bliss. It was definately painful, in more ways than one. It was painful during and it was certainly painful after. Most women today to prefer a man who is at least aggressive with his attentions towards her. But, pretty soon you grow out of the bad boy complex and just want a GOOD man that will treat you right. And some hot sex doesn't hurt! It doesn't bother me at all that you commented, in fact, I greatly enjoy the feedback. I'll add you if you want to befriend me. I'm glad you enjoy these posts about my life :)

Re: Wow just wow! 27yearoldvirgin September 15 2005, 19:36:36 UTC

Yeah I'll gladly befriend you :)

I'm sure the actual act was painful and I'm sure there was some definite pain after also.

That being said coming from someone who is way too old, to have never gotten any.....

The mere thought is mental bliss! I just need to get over the issues in the way.

My lack of self esteem
Fear of Rejection
severe depression.
crippiling shyness
social anxiety disorder.

You get the idea :) As you can see might still be sometime.

I do indeed enjoy the posts, as I mentioned before you definitly have a Flair for writing... the subject matter helps also though!

Re: Wow just wow! blackmesh September 16 2005, 04:58:22 UTC

Wow, yea that's quite a lot on your plate. You need to decide what you want. If it's a sexual encounter there are literally tons of ways to meet someone for sex. The idea that it isn't is just bullshit. Even extremely unattractive people can pay a hooker. Which I am by no means suggesting you do. Anyway, if it's love you want and someone who you are genuinly attracted to and who is genuinly attracted to you...well you may have to wait for that. And that's just how the story goes. Thank you for the sweet compliments :) They mean a lot.

Re: Wow just wow! 27yearoldvirgin September 16 2005, 05:27:30 UTC

Well I'm conflicted on whether or not I just want sex, or if I want more.

I have come to realize I'm going to have to get over my issues, before I get either... becuase a hooker is out.

I just can't get myself to do that, whether it be some false sense of pride, or something else altogether.. I just know it won't ever come to that.

Basically I've decided a long time ago, that if things don't change for me and if I'm still not having much luck, then if it's between remaining a virgin, or only being able to only get some by means of paying... I would rather remain miserable.

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