It's So Cold in this House
I always sort of wondered what the repurcussions of me being in numerous relationships for a solid 5 years would be and when they would strike. And now I think I see. I feel like I've just fucked all these people over and none of them want to see me again or have anything to do with me, and I'm really lonely. I regret becoming close to these people, which is something I never thought I'd say because I was always more optimistic than that. A wave of colossal depression and hopelessness just set in about 20 minutes ago and I can't stop crying.
I genuinely don't know what to do. Am totally lost and scared and all these memories that I don't want keep surfacing. No one feels the need to spare me harsh honesty and for some reason I feel like I deserve more, although perhaps that's not true or fair.
Fuck.
I genuinely don't know what to do. Am totally lost and scared and all these memories that I don't want keep surfacing. No one feels the need to spare me harsh honesty and for some reason I feel like I deserve more, although perhaps that's not true or fair.
Fuck.