Just to get some thoughts out...
Theres so very few people to talk with..so im going to just rant here....
Graduation on the 12th of June...somewhere between 7 and 9 school days left. Im so happy for that. I want to leave this school, leave the fake people.
So much shit has happened this month. May hasnt really been a good month for me in the past few years. I just want to end this bad streak im having. I kinda wish things were how they were 2 years ago. 2 years ago things were fine, great friends, nice life...something went wrong somwhere and people have changed, i find more about people every day and its getting worse. I can barely talk to some of them anymore. On top of that people are playing mind games with me. People that know i really didnt need it this week. Things are supposed to get better senior year, things are supposed to be fun, its only getting worse for me. I dont know where to go anymore. Im kinda avoiding people now. I hate it because some of the people im avoiding are really good friends of mine, but lately whenever i have gone to speak, things will come out jumbled and wrong, and i come close to breaking down even more. I just want to walk up, get my diploma, and leave.
Life is just too confusing for me. Im the kind of person that tries to figure everything out through actions and connections, and i have to have that answer for everything. Im finding fewer and fewer answers as the year comes to a close. I would love nothing more than to just get away for the summer. Unfortunatley i dont think that i can. Nowhere to go lol....
but thats my life from the past year within a good 3 paragraphs...ish...
Graduation on the 12th of June...somewhere between 7 and 9 school days left. Im so happy for that. I want to leave this school, leave the fake people.
So much shit has happened this month. May hasnt really been a good month for me in the past few years. I just want to end this bad streak im having. I kinda wish things were how they were 2 years ago. 2 years ago things were fine, great friends, nice life...something went wrong somwhere and people have changed, i find more about people every day and its getting worse. I can barely talk to some of them anymore. On top of that people are playing mind games with me. People that know i really didnt need it this week. Things are supposed to get better senior year, things are supposed to be fun, its only getting worse for me. I dont know where to go anymore. Im kinda avoiding people now. I hate it because some of the people im avoiding are really good friends of mine, but lately whenever i have gone to speak, things will come out jumbled and wrong, and i come close to breaking down even more. I just want to walk up, get my diploma, and leave.
Life is just too confusing for me. Im the kind of person that tries to figure everything out through actions and connections, and i have to have that answer for everything. Im finding fewer and fewer answers as the year comes to a close. I would love nothing more than to just get away for the summer. Unfortunatley i dont think that i can. Nowhere to go lol....
but thats my life from the past year within a good 3 paragraphs...ish...