Becoming something thats not
*huge defeated sigh* now i feel even worse. i hate how i get so mean when im angry at someone i love. it feels so unnatural to not talk to her but i dont know what to do. no no more pity, no more sorrow, no more tears, nothing more. i dont know if im blowing things out of proportion or just trying to make someone else feel like shit just because i do in hopes that ill feel better. i hope im not. who i am is a mistake and so is my being. i wish someone would please beat me,abuse me, and hurt me so bad. yeah ill enjoy it but thats not the point. after school i was driving on the freeway and i closed my eyes and just let go. nothing happened. it never does. i still love this person with all my heart and i want to forever. i want to be friends and share things and confide in each other and just have fun. i want it to be how it was. except a little different...