Baby baby baby, where did our love go?
I was pissed off all morning because I saw Brandon with his arms around Megan. It shouldn't even bother me. I just think the fact that he's so predictable and he talks so much shit is what irritates me that badly. Plus she hates me for no apparent reason, along with Stacy, Lisa, Michelle, etc. Well Michelle has a conclusive reason: I was a bitch to her the night I broke down in front of Brandon. But still, I apologized so much for it, I don't really understand why she won't even look at me anymore.
So Brandon pissed me off and I spent half my day avoiding him.. right before 3rd I saw him and started walking away. When I looked back he was smiling and I went apeshit. Went into English and barely looked up the whole time, Mr. Witcher knew not to piss me off so he didn't ask me to read today, but the kid in front of me, Seth, a virtual copy of an unexperienced Brandon, kept leaning on my desk trying to fuck this girl Max. Max is a cool girl, I don't know why she's letting her boyfriend play her, along with Seth. Maybe she's a player? I think she has the upper hand. She's more intelligent than alot of people give her credit for, and she's a cheerleader. Very cool chick. And she's hot.
I wrote a rap/poem/freestyle poem in English. Not sure what I was trying to accomplish really, I wanted to write poetry but I wasn't in a really lyrical mood, so I made it flow (in my head, atleast). I left it in my locker though, along with all of these sketches of what I was seeing when Brandon broke down in front of me. Windshields with rain on them, me hugging my knees in the car seat, Brandon crying over the wheel of his car, then just how I felt afterwards. Shit being thrown around and all.
Why the fuck am I revolving around him right now? Oh, I know why. I attempted to make peace ("Hey, are you doing anything?" "No, I'm at mi casa." "Cool. Want me to come over?" "Uhh." "Say yes or no, I can't hear anything." "Probably not." "Oh. *click*") but that didn't work, so now that's on my mind. Plus Caitling needs her sleep tonight so I can't chill there. But I want to get out of my house, so badly. I wonder if <3 has free minutes at night... I'll assume he does and call him now. He sent me a picture of him in the lab and he's so gorgeous. Atleast in my eyes.
I'm getting these coughing fits and I'm getting nervous. I think I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning, really early, and run. Maybe at 6ish. My back itches so badly, same with my shoulders. The reason they are breaking out and itching so badly is because of my fucking nails, which I'm getting fills for tomorrow. I'm going to get them cut shorter too cause they're such a pain now. Atleast I can still play piano and type.
Speaking of which, I'm going to go practice now.
<3Olga
So Brandon pissed me off and I spent half my day avoiding him.. right before 3rd I saw him and started walking away. When I looked back he was smiling and I went apeshit. Went into English and barely looked up the whole time, Mr. Witcher knew not to piss me off so he didn't ask me to read today, but the kid in front of me, Seth, a virtual copy of an unexperienced Brandon, kept leaning on my desk trying to fuck this girl Max. Max is a cool girl, I don't know why she's letting her boyfriend play her, along with Seth. Maybe she's a player? I think she has the upper hand. She's more intelligent than alot of people give her credit for, and she's a cheerleader. Very cool chick. And she's hot.
I wrote a rap/poem/freestyle poem in English. Not sure what I was trying to accomplish really, I wanted to write poetry but I wasn't in a really lyrical mood, so I made it flow (in my head, atleast). I left it in my locker though, along with all of these sketches of what I was seeing when Brandon broke down in front of me. Windshields with rain on them, me hugging my knees in the car seat, Brandon crying over the wheel of his car, then just how I felt afterwards. Shit being thrown around and all.
Why the fuck am I revolving around him right now? Oh, I know why. I attempted to make peace ("Hey, are you doing anything?" "No, I'm at mi casa." "Cool. Want me to come over?" "Uhh." "Say yes or no, I can't hear anything." "Probably not." "Oh. *click*") but that didn't work, so now that's on my mind. Plus Caitling needs her sleep tonight so I can't chill there. But I want to get out of my house, so badly. I wonder if <3 has free minutes at night... I'll assume he does and call him now. He sent me a picture of him in the lab and he's so gorgeous. Atleast in my eyes.
I'm getting these coughing fits and I'm getting nervous. I think I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning, really early, and run. Maybe at 6ish. My back itches so badly, same with my shoulders. The reason they are breaking out and itching so badly is because of my fucking nails, which I'm getting fills for tomorrow. I'm going to get them cut shorter too cause they're such a pain now. Atleast I can still play piano and type.
Speaking of which, I'm going to go practice now.
<3Olga