Saturday.... and all that comes along with
Well it's saturday... duh... uuhhh...... as.... kristin knows... being the only person other than me who reads this.... i've been serously confused about my relationship with deedee... well.... we actually discussed EVERYTHING end agree'd that we want to get married.. on june 16th 2006...... but then last night she tells me..... that like... she's not jealous that i have friends that are girls.... obviously i'm in love with her she has no reason to be jealous.... but after she tells me she's not jealous... she says.. i'm over it i don't care who you end up with..... i'm not sure how to take that... and i'mnot makin any of this up either... i know most of our relationship seems.. well... exagerated.. and some might be.. but what i JUST told you.. is her exact words to me.... i asked her what she meant by that.... and she said... it means i don't care if you end up falling for one of your other female friends.... like.. what the fuck?? what do you mean you don't care?? am i THAT unimportant that even the women who tells me she loves me more than life itself doesn't even care?? wow... i'm not trying to sound emo right now.. even though i am supermo.. but jesus christ how the fuck can i be in love with her if not even SHE cares about me anymore..... i'm not angry or sadden'd by this recent turn of events.... just like.. confused about my situation.... cuz then later on in the conversation she told me i'm hers and she's never letting me go...... i don't know how to react to this all.... i have alot to think about.....