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"Friday, August 10, 2007
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
You may be facing a dilemma that is temporarily irresolvable, so don't judge yourself negatively if you can't find a solution. Getting upset at your shortcomings is simply a waste of energy. For now, it may be wise to just walk away from the problem to give yourself a little more time. Wait until after tomorrow's New Moon before making your decision."
apparently i'm good at working on cars(according to my uncle), and i enjoy doing it, so i think i'm going to go to wtt tech or something, some kind of trade school for cars, you're automatically offered a job at a dealership when you graduate. and i'd get paid to fix cars, with room for growth.
I've been so stressed lately....stressed and paranoid....i almost quit my job today, i was so close to just walking out....it's the same shit everyday, it never progresses, i just dig deeper into debt, and i'm not getting a raise anytime soon...something with my job situation needs to change, and soon....seemingly everything presses my buttons as of late...the little things you do...taking off with your cell phone, sending text's to people at random time's...receiving a text and nervously checking it, thinking i don't see.....not seeming to care when i storm out and don't say a word....always TELLING me i'm going to leave you...getting all jealous because a waitress we work with gives me looks, or maybe acts slightly flirtacious... yet your little friend there sends you texts basically begging you to date him, a friend whom you talk to on a regular basis, a friend whom you see outside of work, since you don't work with them....i work with krista....i don't see her or talk to her in any way shape or from outside of work......and you get upset at me....can you say double standards?.....so you tell him you don't want to date him, and are dating ME no less, yet you still talk to him, hang out with him, just generally get his hopes up and expect me NOT to think something's up? expect me to be okay with it? or how about the fact that you were having a little myspace "comment convo" with your friend and not once did you mention any names or anything, and he mentions how he told craig that he saw you...so he instantly associates you with craig?...see's you and HAS to tell craig?...i feel there's more to this whole thing....like how you had been dating jon for "5 years"...but you broke up with him several times and dated other people....so no...you DIDN'T date him for 5 years....that would be a lie, it's very deceiving....you have all these guy friends, and you said you've broken up with jon, your boyfriend of 5 years or whatever, for other guys, and you expect me not to get worried about you hanging out with guys?...we've been together a month...you and jon...5 years...and i'm supposed to be okay with your little guys friends....you're all i've got besides my guitar and my job...and i don't even want my job....of course i'm going to be suspicious, paranoid, uneasy....especially when you don't tell me anything....i have to pry and pry and pry to get even a peep out of you when your upset...you'd feel shitty too....like i know what you're thinking about....you need to communicate....you want my trust, but you wont talk to me, you keep too much from me.communication is key to making a relationship work....maybe you need to just work yourself out?....apparently you've just jumped from relationship to relationship all this time...maybe you need to be alone to get to know yourself?....it's all so frustrating....i think i'm done rambling on....i'll probably write more later.
rant over....for now.
g'ngiht
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
You may be facing a dilemma that is temporarily irresolvable, so don't judge yourself negatively if you can't find a solution. Getting upset at your shortcomings is simply a waste of energy. For now, it may be wise to just walk away from the problem to give yourself a little more time. Wait until after tomorrow's New Moon before making your decision."
apparently i'm good at working on cars(according to my uncle), and i enjoy doing it, so i think i'm going to go to wtt tech or something, some kind of trade school for cars, you're automatically offered a job at a dealership when you graduate. and i'd get paid to fix cars, with room for growth.
I've been so stressed lately....stressed and paranoid....i almost quit my job today, i was so close to just walking out....it's the same shit everyday, it never progresses, i just dig deeper into debt, and i'm not getting a raise anytime soon...something with my job situation needs to change, and soon....seemingly everything presses my buttons as of late...the little things you do...taking off with your cell phone, sending text's to people at random time's...receiving a text and nervously checking it, thinking i don't see.....not seeming to care when i storm out and don't say a word....always TELLING me i'm going to leave you...getting all jealous because a waitress we work with gives me looks, or maybe acts slightly flirtacious... yet your little friend there sends you texts basically begging you to date him, a friend whom you talk to on a regular basis, a friend whom you see outside of work, since you don't work with them....i work with krista....i don't see her or talk to her in any way shape or from outside of work......and you get upset at me....can you say double standards?.....so you tell him you don't want to date him, and are dating ME no less, yet you still talk to him, hang out with him, just generally get his hopes up and expect me NOT to think something's up? expect me to be okay with it? or how about the fact that you were having a little myspace "comment convo" with your friend and not once did you mention any names or anything, and he mentions how he told craig that he saw you...so he instantly associates you with craig?...see's you and HAS to tell craig?...i feel there's more to this whole thing....like how you had been dating jon for "5 years"...but you broke up with him several times and dated other people....so no...you DIDN'T date him for 5 years....that would be a lie, it's very deceiving....you have all these guy friends, and you said you've broken up with jon, your boyfriend of 5 years or whatever, for other guys, and you expect me not to get worried about you hanging out with guys?...we've been together a month...you and jon...5 years...and i'm supposed to be okay with your little guys friends....you're all i've got besides my guitar and my job...and i don't even want my job....of course i'm going to be suspicious, paranoid, uneasy....especially when you don't tell me anything....i have to pry and pry and pry to get even a peep out of you when your upset...you'd feel shitty too....like i know what you're thinking about....you need to communicate....you want my trust, but you wont talk to me, you keep too much from me.communication is key to making a relationship work....maybe you need to just work yourself out?....apparently you've just jumped from relationship to relationship all this time...maybe you need to be alone to get to know yourself?....it's all so frustrating....i think i'm done rambling on....i'll probably write more later.
rant over....for now.
g'ngiht