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hmmm, I always struggle with what to say in these things... so let us start off with it has been a long, long while.
Woke up at 5:40 today so Andy and I could do an hour of yoga before my 8:00 class started. Wednesday I will probably wake up at 5:30 to give myself a little more time. I was only 3 minutes early to my 8:00 class and that's cutting it a little too close for comfort. I'll admit that I'm a little obsessive compulsive when it comes to arriving early for classes.
Andy and I have been talking about what we want from life recently and we've made it a plan to spend a little less time together. It is too easy to become completely addicted to your significant other when you are in a relationship.
I'll admit that it was my idea (though, after I explained my thought process, he agreed with me) and I was a little nervous about bringing it up. But I do have my reasons...
- I wanted to make sure that we both keep several friends outside of our relationship that we can go to for support and encouragement. Let me clarify this - we have plenty of people we know as a couple but we need to know people as individuals as well. It is unhealthy to depend on one person for all of your needs or to have that person around 90%+ of the time. That's how codependent relationships get started. I’ll admit, having a couple people in Andy’s life that I may never really know strikes a small note of fear in me, but I truly believe that this is necessary and that it is good. I shouldn’t be in this relationship if I can’t trust him.
- We are both still so young that we need our own space to grow, mature, and realize our true potentials. Again, this is extremely important to me - no matter how alike a couple may seem on the outside there are things that they, as individuals, will never realize about themselves if they are always together. When I look at Andy, I see this absolutely amazing person that he is going to mature into and I want to not only give him encouragement but also the space to be able to do so.
- There are a lot of people out there and it’s selfish to keep him all to myself. We both agree that in our relationship we want to help as many people as we can and we can help people more on an individual basis than we can together.
It won’t be drastic - just hanging out with friends more on our own and spending a couple afternoons every week away from each other. He’ll still be there almost nightly (for working out in the morning and etc) and I believe that it will be beneficial for both of us in the end.
Wow, I’m sure that bored most of you :)
Other than that I love life and I can’t wait for it to get warmer!
My neuroanatomy class is going to kick my ass but it’ll be 100% worth it - I find the material so fascinating.
The last thing on my mind at the moment is about happiness. A few weeks ago I figured out that I lost my happy moments. These are moments where I will be so overcome with joy that it will feel like the emotion is bursting from me - I just want to go around and share it with everyone that I know - make them feel this euphoric emotion. For about a half a year these moments have been missing and I was unable to figure out where they had went. Finally, a couple days ago, I realized what had happened... I need to help people. The only way I feel truly happy is when I can make someone feel better about themselves and how they view the world. It’s addictive and selfish in the most round about of ways. So will focus on helping others more this semester. I just have to make sure that I it doesn't interfere with my grades and I can get straight As again. Medical school aint happenin' if the grades don’t add up ;)
I hope that you are all doing fabulously well.
Woke up at 5:40 today so Andy and I could do an hour of yoga before my 8:00 class started. Wednesday I will probably wake up at 5:30 to give myself a little more time. I was only 3 minutes early to my 8:00 class and that's cutting it a little too close for comfort. I'll admit that I'm a little obsessive compulsive when it comes to arriving early for classes.
Andy and I have been talking about what we want from life recently and we've made it a plan to spend a little less time together. It is too easy to become completely addicted to your significant other when you are in a relationship.
I'll admit that it was my idea (though, after I explained my thought process, he agreed with me) and I was a little nervous about bringing it up. But I do have my reasons...
- I wanted to make sure that we both keep several friends outside of our relationship that we can go to for support and encouragement. Let me clarify this - we have plenty of people we know as a couple but we need to know people as individuals as well. It is unhealthy to depend on one person for all of your needs or to have that person around 90%+ of the time. That's how codependent relationships get started. I’ll admit, having a couple people in Andy’s life that I may never really know strikes a small note of fear in me, but I truly believe that this is necessary and that it is good. I shouldn’t be in this relationship if I can’t trust him.
- We are both still so young that we need our own space to grow, mature, and realize our true potentials. Again, this is extremely important to me - no matter how alike a couple may seem on the outside there are things that they, as individuals, will never realize about themselves if they are always together. When I look at Andy, I see this absolutely amazing person that he is going to mature into and I want to not only give him encouragement but also the space to be able to do so.
- There are a lot of people out there and it’s selfish to keep him all to myself. We both agree that in our relationship we want to help as many people as we can and we can help people more on an individual basis than we can together.
It won’t be drastic - just hanging out with friends more on our own and spending a couple afternoons every week away from each other. He’ll still be there almost nightly (for working out in the morning and etc) and I believe that it will be beneficial for both of us in the end.
Wow, I’m sure that bored most of you :)
Other than that I love life and I can’t wait for it to get warmer!
My neuroanatomy class is going to kick my ass but it’ll be 100% worth it - I find the material so fascinating.
The last thing on my mind at the moment is about happiness. A few weeks ago I figured out that I lost my happy moments. These are moments where I will be so overcome with joy that it will feel like the emotion is bursting from me - I just want to go around and share it with everyone that I know - make them feel this euphoric emotion. For about a half a year these moments have been missing and I was unable to figure out where they had went. Finally, a couple days ago, I realized what had happened... I need to help people. The only way I feel truly happy is when I can make someone feel better about themselves and how they view the world. It’s addictive and selfish in the most round about of ways. So will focus on helping others more this semester. I just have to make sure that I it doesn't interfere with my grades and I can get straight As again. Medical school aint happenin' if the grades don’t add up ;)
I hope that you are all doing fabulously well.