Ice On A Sunday
Well its been like a day since i talked to anthony and i guess i cant talk to him until hes not so pissed at me. but i really dont know when that will be so ill just wait a week. i still cry over this but its off and on. my mom keeps telling me he'll call me. i dont know weither to believe that or not. how do you forgive a constant liar? my mom thinks its always been apart of my personality since i was younger, but its been dimishing year after year. only this time i really hurt the only person who actually cared and loved me. In a way its like my depression, it comes and goes without me even noticing that its there.
So latley i've been moping around, having trouble sleeping, and not eating that much. i lost 10 pounds and i think im just going to gain all back with all this stress. i keep telling myself that weither or not he wont take me back i pray he'll consider our friendship. our friendship is worth more then anything. i dont want him to go away.. i dont want him to take me out of his life like this. I guess maybe i deserve it but doesnt everyone deserve a chance?
what i really plan to do is lose alot of weight, get my life together, build my self esteem, LOVE MYSELF, and then go down there and see him.
then i could prove to him that i am responsiable and strong deep down inside and maybe he'll see me and forgive me. My effort is worth something i believe.
well so far i am a mess. "but what do we all do when we fall, we learn to pick ourselves up again...."
So latley i've been moping around, having trouble sleeping, and not eating that much. i lost 10 pounds and i think im just going to gain all back with all this stress. i keep telling myself that weither or not he wont take me back i pray he'll consider our friendship. our friendship is worth more then anything. i dont want him to go away.. i dont want him to take me out of his life like this. I guess maybe i deserve it but doesnt everyone deserve a chance?
what i really plan to do is lose alot of weight, get my life together, build my self esteem, LOVE MYSELF, and then go down there and see him.
then i could prove to him that i am responsiable and strong deep down inside and maybe he'll see me and forgive me. My effort is worth something i believe.
well so far i am a mess. "but what do we all do when we fall, we learn to pick ourselves up again...."