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*sigh*
it's so sad...loooking at my granfather...i love him soooo much. i want him to die, but i want him to live. i feel selfish for that. but i want him to hurry up and die so he won't suffer anymore...i want him to be happy and moble. i don't want him to cause pain on my grandmother nor do i want him to be in anymore pain.
i love him sooo much...jus a few minutes ago he came back here jus to tell me that he loved me. i started crying(not in front of them tho) i kno...i'm jus breaking...but...i think i'mna cry again...ok no i'm not. he means so much to me. i want him to be happy and his suffering to end..................
*sigh* he is in a book, it's called Military Order of the Purple Heart, Membership Directory 2003.
anyway not much else is happening......
later
-mary/malea