Death is to funeral as Birth is to celebration
I find myself crying at times when I really shouldn't. I'm always RPing and pretending to live in a different world because I hate my own. Thats why when the Sims worked on my computer, I was always enthralled in that. Greg said I seemed happier with the Sims. He even got a bit jealous of the game. When I formatted my computer, Sims wont work. My video card apparently isnt compatible so the computer always says "This application has crashed and will now terminate" and it shuts off my game so I need to buy a newer, much better 3D gaming card.
I shouldn't be depressed though. I should be happy. I'm finally moving out this May, I'm going to get a job sometime soon, and I graduate college soon. Whats there to be depressed about? My life doesn't TOTALLY suck aside from where I currently live. But I don't know why I get so depressed and I don't know why I often feel like I'm alone in this world.
I'm not happy with the way I look so I haven't been wanting much food lately. Either that or I get sick from stress and my food comes back with a vengence...
and I don't think he understands me well. I am trying my best to understand him and to be patient with him to try to teach him something. I'm buying him an expensive gaming system and POSSIBLY (unless he finds the one he has now) buy him another engagement ring cause he lost his >_>++
Sure, I may want things too, but asking him to see me, saying all I want for christmas was to go back up to NY when he goes so I can actually be with him instead of being alone this christmas, and wanting to talk to him only means I want to BE with him and he doesn't understand...
He doesn't understand that my love for him is much like that a dog has for it's owner...you can kick the shit out of a dog and it would still love you... (Don't kick dogs >_> thats abuse)
but I'm trying to understand him. The things he goes through, I ask him about because I worry about him. I try to stay supportive and help him when I see he needs it.
I shouldn't be depressed though. I should be happy. I'm finally moving out this May, I'm going to get a job sometime soon, and I graduate college soon. Whats there to be depressed about? My life doesn't TOTALLY suck aside from where I currently live. But I don't know why I get so depressed and I don't know why I often feel like I'm alone in this world.
I'm not happy with the way I look so I haven't been wanting much food lately. Either that or I get sick from stress and my food comes back with a vengence...
and I don't think he understands me well. I am trying my best to understand him and to be patient with him to try to teach him something. I'm buying him an expensive gaming system and POSSIBLY (unless he finds the one he has now) buy him another engagement ring cause he lost his >_>++
Sure, I may want things too, but asking him to see me, saying all I want for christmas was to go back up to NY when he goes so I can actually be with him instead of being alone this christmas, and wanting to talk to him only means I want to BE with him and he doesn't understand...
He doesn't understand that my love for him is much like that a dog has for it's owner...you can kick the shit out of a dog and it would still love you... (Don't kick dogs >_> thats abuse)
but I'm trying to understand him. The things he goes through, I ask him about because I worry about him. I try to stay supportive and help him when I see he needs it.