Life is....awesome?
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I am almost in tears from the happy. Can't breathe sometimes. We've acknowledged how far things have progressed emotionally and physically, and we're keeping respective about it. He knows it's too soon for me to commit to something so deeply, and he's been amazing about it.
It's only making it harder for me to resist just falling into things. And I really do need to resist. I need to make sure this is actually going somewhere before I go ahead and jump head first.
Because I really want to...
This boy...this silly, silly boy just makes me want to forget everything that I've learned in the past while and just give in to emotion. There are those moments, that when he kisses me, that I do. My entire mind goes blank, I suddenly can't breathe, and my heart has a mind of it's own. I can't even remember to keep my balance, sometimes.
He is, by no means, the idealistic Prince Charming on his white horse...He is very real, still quite charming, and drives a Pontiac :P
It will take me a while...to be able to say those words to him, but essentially, I heart him. I heart him hard. I choke right up whenever he asks me what I'm thinking, or what I think of us, or whatever, because it's so hard to say that I'm actually really happy.
It feels so different from before.
He actually asks me, that if he's doing anything whatsoever, that I don't like or that I'm not ready for, to tell him and he will 'cease such actions immediately'. Such a cutie. I've never met anyone so willing to put someone before themselves.
I heart him, and I don't know if I can even tell him that I do. It's kind of painful...because he gives me this look, like he wants to say it too...but we've already discussed this, and he won't, until I do.
Damn this boy. He's willing to stick around for a long, long time. Can I even take it?
Dare I dream of a future with him?
I am almost in tears from the happy. Can't breathe sometimes. We've acknowledged how far things have progressed emotionally and physically, and we're keeping respective about it. He knows it's too soon for me to commit to something so deeply, and he's been amazing about it.
It's only making it harder for me to resist just falling into things. And I really do need to resist. I need to make sure this is actually going somewhere before I go ahead and jump head first.
Because I really want to...
This boy...this silly, silly boy just makes me want to forget everything that I've learned in the past while and just give in to emotion. There are those moments, that when he kisses me, that I do. My entire mind goes blank, I suddenly can't breathe, and my heart has a mind of it's own. I can't even remember to keep my balance, sometimes.
He is, by no means, the idealistic Prince Charming on his white horse...He is very real, still quite charming, and drives a Pontiac :P
It will take me a while...to be able to say those words to him, but essentially, I heart him. I heart him hard. I choke right up whenever he asks me what I'm thinking, or what I think of us, or whatever, because it's so hard to say that I'm actually really happy.
It feels so different from before.
He actually asks me, that if he's doing anything whatsoever, that I don't like or that I'm not ready for, to tell him and he will 'cease such actions immediately'. Such a cutie. I've never met anyone so willing to put someone before themselves.
I heart him, and I don't know if I can even tell him that I do. It's kind of painful...because he gives me this look, like he wants to say it too...but we've already discussed this, and he won't, until I do.
Damn this boy. He's willing to stick around for a long, long time. Can I even take it?
Dare I dream of a future with him?