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[blackirisemo]

I've been hurt, not like usual this time. Truely deeply hurt. I wont recover. I cant be helped. Im going to seek out the truth as soon as I can. I want to make things neutral, not hostile. You've possibly ruined a "family" it's all your fault. I hope you die Johnathan Stilley, I hope you rot in hell for being a horrible human being. I hope that you get fat, i hope that you get althzheimers and forget all that you have learned. I hope you see that life doesnt revolve around you..

I know im a selfish person. I dont deserve friendship, yes I have a mental disorder, But i keep it in check. Yes I'm a glutton for pain, and punishment. but dont hate me for it. embrace me, love me, hug me, get me drunk, show me life, help me enjoy the small amount of time i will have on this earth, my body is already worn thin. It wont last forever, i wish it would. But alas it shall not.

Goodbye
Aaron James Backman

This shall be my last post in livejournal, nobody really reads what i write anymore. its just a waste of peoples time, and effort. I am sorry if i have inconvenienced anyone or burned any bridges...Im just done. Im going to go sit on my couch and stare at my tv in a depressed state, dont call me, dont write. for i most likely wont respond. im numb. i dont want to feel anymore. ive felt too much

I fucking hate people